◕‿◕ Sweet~Escape ♥

Back from holiday

2010-06-26T19:52:00.003+08:00

I'M BACK TO SINGAPORE .
tiring journey back to singapore .
mum sent me to airport .
took plane .
took ferry .
took taxi .
finally arrive at hostel .

Had a lot of FUN with my bestfriends in Indonesia-Pekanbaru .
I'm gonna miss them a lot !
T________T
the holiday seem to pass by so fast .

AND ,
MONDAY school reopening .
wth .
I haven't done my homework .
I don't want to go back to school == .

MY HOLIDAYYYYYYYY

2010-06-05T12:04:00.002+08:00

Yesterday was the last day of CCA for this June ! YAY !
No more tiring days :P
Celebrated Vivian's birthday last night with the hostelmates .
Went to Thai Express at Plaza Singapura .
I ate the most spicy voted food in the menu , but i forgot the name of the food .
HAHA .
Anyway , it was seriously spicyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy !
nice try anyway :P
Went back to hostel around 10.30 pm .
Then continued using my laptop (:
Chatted and webcamed with my dearest best friend in Indo , Sherliana .
hahaha :D
I miss her lots .

As for today , I'm not sure what I'm gonna do .
haha .

YIPPPPPIE , TOMORROW GOING BACK INDO .
❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤
My lovely bestfriend , Febby and Sherliana are going to fetch me tomorrow :DDDD
hohohohohohohoho .

HOLIDAY

2010-05-29T10:39:00.002+08:00

It's been so long I didn't blog . HAHA .
Just feeling lazy . . .

Anyway , many things happened .
Firstly , those three and the half months is already over .
Thanks for the great times that we've spent together .

And , I didn't know what happen to someone ,
someone whom I almost fall for ,
but now ,
that someone wasn't like close to me anymore .
I guess I simply have to forget about that and carry on with happy friendship :D

LASTLY ,
SCHOOL'S OVER .
IT'S HOLIDAY NOW .
however , i stll have to go to school on 1-4 june for cca =.=!
nevermind ,
i'm so excited .
looking forward to 6 june coz i'll be going back to Pekanbaru , Indonesia .
HAHAHA . I miss my bestfriends ❤

stress

2010-03-19T16:45:00.005+08:00

Not in a mood for blogging .
and won't be blogging till i feel better .
Having some problems ,
and now i'm very very extremely stress .
bye.

* crying *
T___________________T

BORED

2010-03-16T20:23:00.002+08:00

Boring and tiring day !
CCA camp days from this tuesday till thursday .
luckily no evernight . hahahhaha !

In the morning ,
Katarina waited for me at the sch bus stop ,
haha , ps make u wait for abut 5-10 minutes .
Then went to the dance studio .
Haha , Ms Wong shared about her experience when she was young ,
quite impressing . haha .
then learn some ballet movements .
hahaha , those movements which i have learnt before in indonesia while i was in primary .
hahahaha! reminds me of my childhood .

After that , dismissed from Ms Wong class ,
then played some games organised by seniors / teachers ? idk .
hahaha .
1st game , yay , i win for the running one .
haha .'
Then two group competition ,
LOL . Stand in the chair and drag/carry the chair to the front ? LOL . Had hard time , so lose . hahahhaa.

After that went for lunch , provided by teacher ,
actually the food is not really nice ,
no choice but to eat .
very bored, don't know what to do after that ,
just chit-chatting with Katarina and Michiko (:
and practise the dance and do warm up .
So " wu liao " ! went for cca from 10am till 5pm just to do this @@!
after that , home sweet home :D

YMCA

2010-03-15T18:54:00.002+08:00

This morning went to YMCA at DhoubyGhaut with some schoolmates.
I don't know what does YMCA stand for .
hahahahaha !
went there for a workshop on ' making proposal for business '
not realy sure ,
but it's for the english project .
LOL .
workshop from 9am to 12.30pm .

After we are dismissed,
went to LongJohn Silver to have our lunch (:
after that some went to other place , some went home ,
while Bea , Jinger , Anisah , and me , went to walk around Plaza Singapura .
Haha !
at 1st wanna watch movie , but the there's nothing good to watch .
so buy popcorn , ice-cream and walk around chat chat . haha .
after that , went to the mrt station,
sit outside the platform for abour more than 1 hour ,
chit-chatting , gossiping . hahahaha .
had fun anyway (:
then go home .

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA .
Tomorrow need to go for cca camp ,
but no evernight .
Siannn , don't wish to go , but have to go ==!

imissyou ):

2010-03-14T00:48:00.009+08:00

Cindy & Katarina

13 March 2010

Went out with my dearest Katarina from afernoon till night .
Went to Orchard .
Walk around , shopping , chit-chatting .
Luckily can go out with her ,
otherwise we both will just be frozen in boredom at home .
Haha .

Gw ga tw ada apa dgn loe ..
Tp gw mrasa loe mnjadi sdikit brubah ..
Kemaren malam , loe blg stelah loe uda tau nilai rapor loe ,
loe bakal sms gw ?
Tapi ternyata ..........
Gw nunggu ampe tengah malam ,
tau2 loe ga ada sms ,
mngkn loe kecapekan jadi lngsg tdr ? i don't know .
Besok paginya ,
gw nunggu sms dr loe ampe sore ,
tp juga ga ada ....
and akhirnya i gw yg sms loe dluan ..
itu pun loe balasnya 1 jam kemudian ? i think .
and loe blg loe lgi d warnet .
and pastinya maen mulu ....
gw bingung yah ...
gw aja kalo maen audi msi sempat and bs blz sms dr siapa aja ..
tp ...
game lebi pntg ya manknya ?
bru skitar 4 sms ,
gw akhiri aja pembicaraannya , bierin loe maen dlu , drpd gw gangguin .
malemnya ,
loe online msn , truz cra ngmngnya juga beda ..
bingung dhe ......
i'm so speechless .
mdh2an aja loe ga brubah ..

It's midnight now , nitex .

Trust

2010-03-12T21:54:00.005+08:00

It's last day of school before the march holiday .
In fact it doesn't even seem to be holiday .
Disaster week for next week .
Project , Homework , CCA , fcking annoying .
anyway ,
Get my report book ,
here's the horrible results of mine :

English : E8
MotherTongue : A2
Mathematics : E8
Science ( Phy/Chem ) : A2
Comb.Humanities ( Geo/SS ) : A2
Design & Technology : A1
POA : C5

Disappointing results ):
I fail two subjects which is English and E-Maths .
For English , supposedly I pass ,
but I fail ,
because my comprehension mark was so low last time while others were alright .
As for E-Maths ,
totally hopeless ,
I can't understand what the hell Mdm Tok is teaching ==!
so yeah , I never pass my E-Maths since the start of the school this year , till now .
Really hope I can find ways to improve my maths ):
Worst results for maths ever in my lifetime .
I've never fail every tests for maths last time , maybe just fail 1 for few tests .
And now , it seems so hopeless and I'm helpless .
Anyway , I pass for overall percentage .

Kadang aq merasa takud kau kan meninggalkan diriqu ..
Karena pastinya aq tidak kan siap untuk menerima kenyataan ..
Aq percaya pada dirimu ..
Tapi kadang aq mrasa ragu pda dirimu ..
srius apa ga ?
smua tergantung pda dirimu ..
"keep waiting and be faithful ."
tiap x teringat ama kmu ..
mikirin kmu seharian ,
pertanyan yg sma terulang berkali2~
Aq berharap kmu bakal ngerti ,
and ga bakal ngecewain aq .

school fucking annoying

2010-03-11T20:41:00.005+08:00

Project sucks to the core .
Damn it !
english group project ,
chemistry group project ,
mother tongue hol hmwrk ,
geography hol hmwrk ,
physics holiday hmwrk ,
english ,
maths ,
d&t .

FUCK . Next week will be the march holiday ,
In fact it doesn't even seem like a holiday ,
IT'S A DISASTER .
What a fcking school , fcking holiday .
School simply don't understand the word and the meaning of " holiday " , correct ?
What kind of holiday is this ?
No days off . fck .
And there will still be cca camp , but no overnite , for next tues , wed and thurs .
GRRRRRRRR , feels like saying out all the vulgarities .
I'm so pissed .
Next week , march holiday , I'm supposed to go back to Indonesia ):
But I can't ):
Just coz of these fcking school work .
School gives everyone stress .
Can't the school just let the students rest for few days by not organising any activities during the holiday ? It really sucks .
No one would want a holiday turns into a nightmare , full of work and stress .

Gonna continue doing my D&T homework now ,
bye ~

Hope what you said this afternoon is truly from your heart .
At least with that i can put my trust on you .

2010-03-10T20:52:00.003+08:00

09 March 2010

Dear my friend ,

kinda shocked when you ask me about that .
feeling very bad .
don't mean to hide it from you ,
but i'm afraid it will hurt you .
and today , you know the fact .
i'm sorry but i hope you can carry on with your life and not living in the past .
and most important one is , i hope this won't affect our friendship .
i really don't want a guy being the cause for a breaking friendship .
just hope you can understand .
i'm actually very worried for you ,
worried that you will do something silly or hurt yourself just because you're sad .
i'm really sorry if i hurt you and do not tell you about it .

at night ,
chatted with hx about e ~
frankly speaking , i also don't know what is on e's mind .
i just hope one day they both will be together again ~
goodluck hx (:
anyway , hx told me something .
at first i was seriously panic , wondering what will he tell me ?
is it good news or bad news ?
i thought he will say something disappointing about him* ,
but unexpectedly ,
i was so surprised when hx told me about that* .
I was so touched .
hahahahahaha .
hopefully what hx said is really true .
so that i can really trust him* (:
Thanks for all the info anyway (:

10 March 2010

SO so so sleepy in the class ):
i hate homework .
i hate project .
i hate tuition .
i hate studying .
i hate school , but love it too .
AAAAAAAAAAAA . i'm becoming super lazy .
coming to sg actually is just making me being a LAZY person , seriously .
I don't know why too == .
I can feel every changes in myself .

went for contemp dance cca after school ,
the bruise in my knee which i got during the camp ,
doesn't heal but becoming painful again .
Few days ago it is already not pain ): but now it is .
I think i knock the floor or something just now ?
HAHAHAHHAHA .

Lastly,

♥MyBCHCCHB

2010-03-08T22:00:00.006+08:00

Saturday , 6 March 2010

Went to meet Agnes at Eunos around 5pm (:
then proceeded to Eastcoast Park for the bbq organised by Karina (:
Slack a while , then went cycling with Marshely , Marshela , Karina , Jenie , and Agnes .
Reyuki , Rion and Ferra stayed at the villa ,
preparing for the bbq (:
Damn tired uuh go cycling .
Rest for a while , buy drinks buy ice-cream :D
Hoho !
Around 7.30pm , returned the bicycle ,
then went back to the villa .
By that time , Vincci , Ingrid , Bellda and Jeremy were already there (:
so yeahh , eat eat eat , slack slack slack .
Some play cards , some play auditionSEA (:
quite fun actually .
went back home around 10pm plus =X
Insanitorium rocks !

Sunday , 7 March 2010

cancelled my maths tuition which should be at 1-3pm .
1st reason : I need to finish up my D&T homework , 56 drawings @@ , afraid no enough time .
2nd reason : too lazy to study
3rd reason : have not finish my tuition homework
HAHAHAHAA .
Around 3 then one come (:
pei me do the freaking d&t designs .
only draw 9 designs in 2 hours -.-!
coz , i've no idea of what to draw @_______@
Then one didn't concentrate on studying the maths . HAHA .
Homework sucks , seriously ):
eventually , slack and watch tv shows .
The shows were damn cool .
It's all about dance ,hiphop , old schools , modern , etc ~ niceeeee lehs . so impressed . HAHA .
After that went to the mall at the opposite , had dinner , then go home (: ♥

Monday , 8 March 2010

haiiish , today school start as usual ):
so bored , really super sleepy today .
and i think i will fail my english for the term 1 result coz i fail my compre last time .
compo , summary , etc , could not help even if i pass ):
Haiish .
Got back the compo commontest , fortunately pass ^^ .
after doing correction , SLEEP ! Haha .
anyway luckily the teacher never scold coz so many people do nt finish the 56 d&t design drawings , gotta finish by friday . Sian ! == .
Why is it that I become so lazy since sec 2 onwards ??????
Now is already sec 3 ,
a quite important year ,
and I'm still not serious about my studies , still slacking around ?
What's wrong with me == ! hell .

back from camp

2010-03-05T18:57:00.003+08:00

YO ~
Back from this freaking camp at St John Island .
Damn tired , definitely .
3 days two nights camp .
First day was the horrible one , super super tiring .
2nd day was quite okay (:
And third day , finally , byebye camp .
We had water rafting ,
kidnapped game where by each group have to find one of their group member who is missing and being locked in a place ,
endurance training - exercise , run , physical training .
campfire , etc .
TIRED TIRED .
And finally now I'm back ! :P

♥
Today ,
It's been a month (:
I have so many questions in my mind .
wishes ....
hope it's lasting

Tired

2010-03-03T00:51:00.002+08:00

02 March 2010

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO My Mother ★★★★★★
wish her all the best and happiness :D
and patience for every difficulties that we got to face .
Love you Mum ♥

Had social enterprise talk in the hall today .
Damn boring , the talk simply made me so so so sleepy !

Went back home ,
settle all the maintenance fees for my house ==.
Haiiish . money money money got to be taken out again .

Around 7 , went to meet Katarina at Orchard ~
went to Lido - Shaw ?
Had Long John Silver's dinner ,
then saw ojy,c and xl ~
LOL . hahahahha .
anyway , we both went to Lido to watch a movie ,
" Alice in Wonderland "
the movie would be officially shown on 4th Mar ,
but tonight we had chance for free movie tickets to watch that movie in advance,
the tickets were given by Kat's guardian . haha . so good huh ~
Btw , the queue to go inside the cinema was super damn long ,
the cinema was big too.
and unexpectedly , all of the people's phone could not be brought inside the cinema ,
it had to be deposited to a place .
CHEYYY , So strict ==!
still checked bags .
haha . anyway , the movie was quite amazing :D
movie finished at around 10.45pm == .
so late ,
arrive home at 11 plus .

It's midnight 03 Mar 10 , now .
then start packing for the camp .
Oh yea , i'll be away from Wednesday , 03 March 10 until Friday , 05 Mar 10 .
Too lazy to pack , too lazy to go . ==!

And , to make it worse ,
I have so so so many homeworks to do for this week !
D&T , got to draw 54 drawings design .
Maths ,
English ,
idk already ~~~~~~
HAIIIISHHHHHHHHHHHHHH . DAMN IT .

z

2010-03-01T21:29:00.004+08:00

01 March 2010

Had school learning journey today ,
at cityhall ?
visited some historical places .
Then waited for Katarina after my class was dismissed .
Our class was the first one to reach sch ,
so i got to wait for Katarina for about half an hour .
haha , nvm :)
Then went to Toapayoh with Katarina ♥
bought a pair of white school shoe :)
and an extension hair ? @@ . clip one ~
idk larh ..
Saw the indo boys from the sch .
They were there too O__O
then proceeded to AMK hub :D
pass by Kat's house :D
haha .
At AMK saw eileen .
Just walked around ~~~~~~~~
Chat chat ,
then go home at around 5 plus :)

Love 28 Feb 2010

2010-03-01T00:52:00.003+08:00

★ 28 February 2010 ★

Meet one at around 5 or 6 (:
Thanks for the V Day gift ~
It's really so so so sweet (:
The letter , I hope you really mean it (:
Thanks ♥
Then went to eastcoast ^^ .
after having dinner ,
then rent bike for one hour (:
cycled till a place called dunno what Jetty ~
a lot of fishermen at there .
haha .
It was a fullroom , round , so calming .
Stars were everywhere ,
and we counted so many of them .
I felt as I was dreaming , but I wasn't .
It was indeed the sweetest d _ _ e ever ♥
Dear Eastcoast : you made my day (:

2010-02-28T00:01:00.007+08:00

Had maths tuition in the morning .
Haiiish , my maths is getting bad to worst at school ):

After that ,
decide with Katarina of where to go and what time .
So yea , we took about 1 hour just to think of what to wear =X
Haha , girls are like that =X
AAAAAAAAAA . Today spent so much ): , unlike usual .
ballet shoe , tight for dance , movie , short , bag , food .
AAAAAAA . all in a day . shyt .

Sigh ,
these ulcers inside my mouth , annoying .
Make me have a hard time to swallow food ):
and it's pain and very uncomfortable .
Another thing ,
my stomach's muscles are aching ! AAAAAAAAAA .
Laugh , cough , move , I can feel the pain . HAISH .

To someone :

I'm so sorry ):
Can't go with you today .
I wish I could .
At first I thought u would cancel it again ,
but end up , I disappoint you ?
I'm sorry .
I want to go with you too ,
but I just can't break my promise to go with K ~
and in fact , she asked me out since last week already ,
so I can't just leave like that .
Coz we need to find a place to buy the ballet shoes ~
Ps . . . Really sorry .
I don't know if you're not happy or what ,
but u seems like .
U didn't msg me after that ,
and I have to make the first move .
Hopefully tomorrow can see you .

2010-02-26T23:41:00.002+08:00

YAY ! Got back my D&T common test 1 paper (:
haha ! got 27/35 marks , which is already A1 :D
quite happy (:
haha .

Went for cca again , the dance teacher is quite nice (:
hahas .
:D
hope i can cope and DO SPLIT soon !
My body's muscles are all still aching ):
Too bad for me . Haiish .
So terrible . Move hand move legs also pain .
Laugh and cough , stomach's muscles also feel pain .

2010-02-25T23:28:00.002+08:00

Physics test !
Hopefull pass :D

Anyway , get back the POA test paper :P
A1 this time , careless mistakes ):
haiish .

OMG . I'M dying lar !
My body's muscles are all aching from yesterday onwards .
Damn it .
So uncomfortable , fcking painful .
And tmr still have cca and pe , WTH .
gonna be even more painful ):
T___________T

Tonight , I received no msg .

2010-02-24T23:40:00.002+08:00

POA test !
manageable (: hopefull can pass .

Anyway ,
today is y first day joining the conteporary dance .
( transferred cca )
HAHA .
Quite though ):
Haiish .
Hopefull slowly I can split and do other unique movements :D
Jys to myself .
HAHA .
CCA from 3-5pm .
after cca , all body's muscles are all pain @@
HAISH .

Go home , continue do the malay project == .
CHeyyyyy .
tmr have physics test , havent study ,
DIE .

2010-02-23T23:57:00.002+08:00

Hmmm .
log in to my facebook ,
saw something .
" so you found a new gal ? "
Congratz ~
all the best for u both (:
and hope u can be happy (:

Did project again .
damn boring this time .
Haiish . end at around 9.30pm . so late .
find cab to go home also so hard == .
reach home at around 10 ~
haiish .

2010-02-22T23:35:00.003+08:00

D&T test today , not prepared @@ .
coz last night can't study coz of headache .
But this morning recover alrdy (:
hahas .

After school ,
went to D's house with J , E , D ~
to do malay project again .
haiish ,
this time , practical !
bake ? cook ?
mix mix ingredients .
haha !
then the aunty in D's house cooked friedrice for all of us . thankss lots .haha
Later on Jn came , then we did the 1st food , " Manisan Mangga "
( Sweet Mango )
haha . we make the sause for the mango (:
taste quite nice ^^ .
2nd is to make " Kuih Talam " ( Talam cake ? idk )
Made from *pandan* ~
taste not that bad but not so delicious too .
Damn full , later then eat macaroni and noodles .
haha . really full @@ .
HAHA .
hopefully tomorrow can finish up the project to make a moviemaker .

btw , i think i'm a bit addicted to " Tap Tap "
a game in the iPhone / iTouch :D
hahahahhaa !

2010-02-21T20:10:00.003+08:00

I Hate Today !

Ms Tan , my tuition teacher came together with my guardian coincidentally .
Then she taught me lesson .
While my guardian was wandering around my house to check .
After tuition , Ms Tan was questioned by my guardian .
WTF man ==!
Seriously I'm so upset and pissed .
My guardian accussed me of lying to him .
Come back at around 1am ? WTF . I did not .
Latest is 12 plus only .
WTH .
And yet he dare to threaten me , saying that he could just kick Ah Mei Jie out of my house if she helped me talk . Wth . who are you huh to threaten me huh ?!
I'm just being patient just now . Don't test my patience k ?! Knnccb .
And he still can say that my friends may be bad , such as , putting medication in a food and etc .
WTH ..... Don't ever u say such things to me . They're my goodfriends and I won't let u insult them .
Go die fcker .
I know which is bad and which is not !
You're such a selfish and stubborn man . So what if you're my father and my grandfather's goodfriend ? I DON'T CARE .
Watch your fcking attitude .

Full of stress in singapore .
I really wish I can go back to indonesia .
At least they could understand me better and i won't have this much of stress .
Sms my mum ,
told her that I really need to talk .
So I talked to her on phone for about an hour .
Kept on crying .
I'm feeling so down .
Sorry Mum , I know you maybe disappointed when I said that you and Dad shouldn't send me to sg coz I'm really stress and when I'm stress I can't do well on my studies nor concentrate .
It's really disturbing .
It's not easy to forget things .
It takes time , and it's really hard .
I took ur advices , but it's really hard .
That's coz u are not me .
If you are one of those who went overseas to study , being left far away from ur families and ur goodfriends , you will know how much pain I had now .
Today is the day I cried the most and the loudest for the entire of my life here in sg .
I've stayed in sg for two years plus . And today , my tears kept dropping .
After crying so much , got headache from afternoon till night .
No one could understand me ):

Went to meet J , D , E , and G after that ,
to do project again .
Thanks for making me smile and laugh , at least .

When I'm back to home ,
realised that I'm sick .
Temperature is around 37.1 to 37.

2010-02-20T23:41:00.003+08:00

20.02.10

Went to Starbuck at United Square , novena at night to do project .
With E , J , and D .
AAAAA . . . Confused of what to cook for the malay project .
Too lazy to do actually ):
But nextweek need to pass up the moviemaker already . DIE****

I don't know what's exactly is on your mind .
I answer it coz I just want to be frank .
But I'm kinda worried of that question .
Thinking of what will happen , what to do , what to say .

2010-02-20T02:09:00.005+08:00

19 Feb 2010

In the morning ,
someone told me something ,
and it's kinda hurting my heart .
i wish i know the truth .
anyway, done with this matter ,
at night discuss it with one already .
Don't know whether it's just a misunderstanding or the rumour could be true ?
I just want you to be loyal and sincerely mean what you said .

Another problem :
Seriously ,
I don't know what is wrong with you .
U just simply don't understand what I mean .
I'm just asking to make the time earlier so that we can have more time to finish up the project .
Coz I'm afraid we've got no enough time .
But u think that I choose him instead of sch work ?
I'm not even sure if I will go out on that day .
Even if have , it won't affect the timing .
OMG . Why do you have to think so negatively like this .
U don't get what I mean .
I don't know why , but I find that I have a hard time to talk to you this month onwards .
Hope you won't misunderstand

Anyway , today my cousin come to sg (:
hihihi .
I've never met her for about 6 to 8 years .
Coz she's living in the different city .
hahas .
and finally i get to see her today .
At night , went to plaza singapura with her , her bf and her friend .
Watched "Percy Jackson and The Lightning Thief "
not sure of the title,
but the movie is GREAT .

Have a hard time to sleep at night .
I slept at around 3am when I'm supposed to sleep at around 1am .
I'm really stress .
Why does our friendship break bit by bit like this ?
What's wrong you your personality this few weeks ?
You were not like this last year ):
I kept thinking about it before I slept .
I even almost cried , thinking of all these stressful problems I had in singapore ):
I miss my friends in indo , I need them to be by my side , calming me down , cheering me up .
I want to go back indonesia T__________________T

2010-02-18T23:28:00.003+08:00

BLABLABLABLABLA ~ !
E-Maths test again today .
FCK.
For sure , fail .
I really don't like the way Mdm Tok teaches == .
Talk more of crap , less revision . Sucks .
This year , is the worst I ever get for Maths , seriously .
ALL F9 ! WTF .

Last period , English .
Mr Ho didn't come , so Mr Peter replace him .
Wth , Mr Peter is like ........... so act smart , act pro , act cool ,
when he's actually , SUCKS .
And , he talks like a bastard sia == .
Keep on looking down on other people and kept on raising his voice .
To be frank , his voice is seriously WEIRD .

Lastly , thanks to one for sending me home (:

2010-02-17T22:04:00.002+08:00

Did my english holiday homework yesterday ,
from noon to night .
WTH la , 22 summaries with 22 articles on 10 topics .
Shyt .
End up , left with 5 more unifinished summaries ,
rushed to do it in the morning at school ,
but still couldn't finish .
Even though today was the dateline ,
fortunately , we didn't have english period today.
YAY . LUCKY .
and now ,
I'm struggling to finish up the other summaries ):
Haiiish .

And tomorrow have e-maths test again .
WTH ,every week have test , knn ==!
Mdm Tok , i'm starting to dislike you == .
You're torturing us ):
T__________T
and tomorrow , i think i'm gonna fail again ):

Gw cuma mau ' ketulusan cinta ' dari loe ..
And , hubungan yang ' lasting ' ..
That's the only things that I want from you ..

WHAT THE FUCK

2010-02-16T12:37:00.004+08:00

15 February 2010 ( updated )

went out with Xuanha ❤
a vietnamnese girl , my ex-hostelmates (:
haha .
met up at eunos mrt around 7pm , i think .
Walked for a while , then took cab to EastCoast Park ❤
Had McDonald for dinner (:
then walked again along the seaside .
Haha .
Took pictures since we don't know what to do .
Don't have the chance to cycle coz it was quite late in the night .
Anyway , we found a wallet under the bench where we sat on .
There are bank card , IC , and $445 cash . WOW .
when we take a look at the IC , they seems to come from china .
Yah , at first we wanted to go to the security office / police station nearby to report the lost wallet .
Luckily , the owner came back on time before we left .
So , we give back the wallet (:
After that went to McD again , ate MacFlurry Oreo , wohoooo .
Then took cab back to my home (:
Yayyyy ! Xuanha overnighted at my house . Happy Happy .
Thanks for helping to do some of my homeworks too .
❤ youu sistaaa ~ !

Btw , had a war* with KK in the midnight in msn .
WTF MAN !
I'm so so so damn pissed .
This is the first time i met people like you huh !
So unreasonable and no link at all .
Don't just think of yourself fker .
You're indeed one of the most unreasonable people i ever know .
SHOO !
If you feel that i always make you not happy , then why bother to keep on msging .
I've never ever ask you to msg me .
Just don't chat with me if you think i always pissed you off lor !
____|____ get lost !

16 February 2010

Haiiish , now doing my english holiday homeworks .
Need to finish the 22 summaries of articles by today ,
coz tmr need to pass up .
Dying*
Hope someone can help me ):

2010-02-15T00:35:00.005+08:00

14 February 2010 ~

HOHO !
It's Chinese New Year and Valentines Day ! ❤

Had lunch with my guardian's family.
haha , just realise that it is the restaurant where Ah Mei Jie works at (:
Food was kinda nice . DIMSUM ❤

Afternoon - Night
Shasa , Sunglim and NgocAnh came to my house ,
we went for swimming .
Then around 7pm ,
we cooked rice with eggs , chicken wings and nugget (:
Around 8 then one came (:
Ps , felt really sorry , afraid your mum will get mad at you ):
Then went to clarkequay (:
Just wandering around , sitting and chatting by the singapore river .
hahaha , the stars were wonderful .
Thanks for making my day .
I'm rather happy .
and the taxi driver just now was funny but fun . AHAHAHAHA .
❤❤❤

Now it's already 12am plus .
So , byes everyone (:

2010-02-14T00:24:00.008+08:00

❤❤❤❤❤❤

It's 12.25am NOW .

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR ❤
and
HAPPY VALENTINES DAY ❤

Hope everything will goes fine .
Hope it's lasting* .
Hope I can improve myself in maths .
Hope I won't get anymore of stress .
Hope there will be prosperity in my life .
Thank God (:

Haha , I don't know why ,
but I just feel very happy when talking / chatting / smsing with you (:
Hopefully , what you say is what you really mean ★

❤

2010-02-13T22:03:00.002+08:00

Morning ,
woke up around 10.30am .
Then had science tuition at 12.30-2.30pm .
After that , nothinggggggg to do liao .
So bored ,
then just play auditionSEA for a while .
Haiishh , my skills become so bad coz it's been long time i don't play auditionSEA ,
coz of studies and too lazy to play =X

And seriously ,
got irritated by KK again .
Just don't keep on msging me if you;re just gonna talk nonsense things ,
If i don't reply , u're not happy .
But if i reply , u'll raise my temper ,
and make me become badmood again.
I've got to give back ur maths notes ASAP .
Don't wanna talk so much ,
Don't wanna keep on getting irritated by you .
Just stop .

I miss Katarina ):
A day without her seems so empty .
If she is here , at least I can chat with her and go out with her .
unlike now , so lonely .
what a bad holiday .

For dinner ,
just went to a restaurant with my guardian's family.
(:

2010-02-12T23:07:00.002+08:00

Before recess ,
have lessons as usual .
For PE lesson ,
just do pull ups and play kapten ball :P
haiiss , the pe teacher , mr pang ,
so rough sia , haha .
he accidentally bumped into my arm ,
and now my arm got a one line red scar .
x___x

After recess ,
have chinese new year celebration .
Contemporary dances and the indian dances performed really well .
Bea and HaiAn were so cool !
They dance hiphop with ballet .
It's really wonderful .
hahahaha , Bea rocks ! :D

After school , went to bubbletea shop ,
then went to marina square with Bea , Jade and Sabrina :D
eat eat ,
play arcade ,
then BOWLING ! :D
haha it's really fun .
For 1st game , Bea won .
2nd game , Jade won me by a point ):
Haha , i'm always in the 1nd position x___x haiish . haha nvm (:
had fun anyway .
After that go home .
Thanks to Bea for showing me the way to walk from lavender mrt to my house
and sending me home . haha :P

2010-02-12T00:01:00.003+08:00

STRESS
STRESS
STRESS
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm really starting to hate mathematics !
GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR . !
Why Mdm Tok taught so ......................... ?!
==!

and got more irritated by KK ,
seriously .
I told you that I'm in the badmood ,
so just leave me aloneeeeeeeeeeeeee ==!
I'm too lazy to reply those unimportant msg .
If it's not necessary then don't msg me .
and make me even more badmood ==!
See the situation pls if you want to joke around .

Anyway , tonight ,
went to Balestier Students' Hostel ,
my ex-hostel .
went there for reunion dinner .
haha i am invited as an ex-hostelite .
hahaha XP.
Food was quite a lot .
haha damn full .
I'm so happy to meet some of my hostelmates again !
HAHA , love them love them ! ♥

After that went to Toapayoh to meet Katarina ♥
She lent me a red shirt for tomorrow since i don't have red shirt .
haha .
sad ): Katarina is going back to Indonesia for holiday tomorrow .
She's not coming to school tmr ):
She will not be here with me during the CNY holiday .
T__________T
How should I spent my holiday ?
with homeworks ? projects ? DIE LARH .
go out with friends ? i wish .
meet families like how i did years ago ? i wish .
My family is going back to Medan ,
I wish i could ):
but the stupid ticket is already full ):
too bad for me , can't go back Indonesia , but to stay in sg == .

2010-02-10T20:13:00.008+08:00

E-MATHS TEST !
DIEEEEEEEEEEE LARH !
No enough time .
Struggling .
I'm gonna fail fail fail again and again !
T______________T
I don't like Mdm Tok ):

Geography test was quite okay (:
manage to do :P
haha .

Anw , KK .....
I just don't know why I felt that he's quite annoying == .
Haish , anyway , thanks for the maths notes la .
I guess that may help me understand better a bit .

I'M SO PISSED !
Seriously .
Why the hell did you think so negatively ?
U ever hurt me for few times ,
did I think so negatively about u ? NO .
Last time , I just tried to calm myself down .
Trying to accept the fact .
And find that being friends fit us better .
And NOW ,
how can you think so badly like that ?
I'm really upset .
it depends on how all of you treat me too .
And some other reasons .
Seriously , i got so disappointed when i read that msg .
Don't just think of yourself pls .
Some things just can be said out .

Kenapa sih cowok" pada berdatangan bulan ini ?
Memuakkan bgt ! Gw yang stress akhirnya .
Gw ndri yg kena msalahnya .
Bingung mo mili siapa .
Yg di tolak , ga bs menerima kenyataan .
SIAL BANGET .
STRESS sekolah , stress friendship , stress everything ! KNN .
I WANT TO GO BACK INDOOOOOOOOOOOO !
I need my bestfriends in indo .
I've so many things to tell them ):
I feel like crying .

2010-02-09T23:12:00.005+08:00

Haha .
Morning when I just arrived at the school bus stop ,
saw him (:
haha . then walked together to my class,
then he went off to his class (:

Arghh , she's ignoring me ?
Just coz of that day .
But she should have thought of my situation too .
Yeah , now i'm very close to K.
She's now my bestfriend in sg , and maybe you just don't like me being close to her.
At least , she could understand me better than some of you .
She can make me laugh and smile .
Cheer me up when i'm down .
So don't gimme that attitude ,
just be normal , like how we did last time , ok ?

LOL

2010-02-08T17:21:00.005+08:00

{ updated }

05 February 1010

☜♡☞
~jadian dengan seseorang~♥ 12am

Afternoon , went around Orchard with my sayangqu Katarina ♥
Have fun (: (:
Then met Fandy and his friends , the indonesians from Pekanbaru too
He didn't talk much though .
Katarina and I find it so boring ):
haish . then home home !
Anyway , congratulation to the basketball b-boys team for winning the tournament (:

06 February 2010

Happy Birthday to Ivan (:
wish you all the best ~ !
Hopefully u'll like the cloth :P

Went to MarinaSquare ,
for sabrina's bday celebration ? @@
With Sabrina , Yumin , Vania , Bea , Jade and Katarina .
Anw , on that was , really not in a mood .
and to make things worse ,
some people just make me feel more irritated ==!
Almost evening , then went to vivocity with Katarina ,
coz she needs to buy ferry ticket to go back indo on 12 Feb ? i think .
Then have fun , just the two of us , at vivocity .
♥ I love Katarina ! :P ♥

07 February 2010

First tuition of the year !
Haha !
Tired ~~~~
10-12pm maths tuition . Wow , the teacher really look like Ms Lim .
haha ! funny (:
2-4pm science tuition , it's a malay teacher .
Her way of teaching is quite good though (:
hoho .
All thanks to Ms Lim for recommending your friends to be my tuition teacher :D

After that ,
went to Orchard with one (:
watch " I Hate Valentine Day "
the movie is quite late ,
so we went home around 11.30 ~ @@ .
reach home ler ,
then do ironing == .
then do english homework ! ==! HAISH .
then SAY GOODNIGHT . (: ♥♥♥

08 February 2010

Wahhh , luckily I pass my social studies test ! ^^
75% :P
scored 9/12 for essay (:
hohohoho . ^^

And , happy birthday to Chengwei (:
Hope you like the tie =X

STRESS

2010-02-04T19:59:00.002+08:00

ARGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH !
Fail my english comprehension badly ):
luckily pass my summary .
Haish . Stress arh !
Keep failing . I'm so afraid that I will retain sec 3 ):
If Dad & Mum know this , they will sure be damn disappointed at me.
Spent so much just for me to study well at SG , end up ......
Imagine ..... ! so deadful .
Haish !
I want to work hard -
I want to study -
I want to concentrate -
But I can't . Why am I so hopeless ?
Since sec 2 , my grades have been dropping even till now in sec 3 .
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA . STRESS . EXTREMELY !

Anyway , after school ,
R asked me if I ..............................................
I was like 0_______________________0 !
No wonder some of them keep looking at me for the previous few days .
@@ !
And one* was there too .
Then one* accompanied me home . Thx .
It's actually fun talking to you .
But I'm just afraid that one day I'll be hurt ):

♥

Dear Valentine Day ,
Hope I won't get confused on that day .
Hope God will give happiness to me

♥

SIGH

2010-02-03T23:29:00.002+08:00

Early in the morning ,
KK sms me ,
KK , a stranger ,
who is actually my friend's classmate ,
not in my school , obviously .
He's so funny ==! and lame .
haha !

Anyway , E Maths test ! I'm gonna be so dead .
for sure , fail ! x_____x
and my poa , i fail by 1 adn the half marks ): sad .
Social studies test should be okay bah (:
haishh , so stress . upper secondary sucks, i'm so frustrated .

Wohoooo ,
get to know one indo guy ,
from my city ,
from my previous sch ,
who already graduated from SantaMaria .
kwokwokwok ,
make friend make friend ! :P

Bleahh , knp sii yg nanya smua na pda org sg ):
gw kan pgn na org indo ><
bier lbh mudahh , and akrab =X
hhe .
kyknya hari valentine gw bakal sendirian dhe ):
abisnya msi bingung x.x
haish.

I was waiting ....
but there's no message ):

2010-02-02T19:42:00.005+08:00

Sister and brother ! Hahahahhaa :P

Mock Napfa test ! :P
haha .
Positioned at 10 over all the girls from three classes :)
not bad not bad :D
at least pass !
haha !

Physics test was 50:50 @@ .
and POA , omggggggggggggg ! confusing !
Luckily , E maths test is postponed to tomorrow !
haishhh !
Mdm Tok , you sucks ! ):
So stress TT
tomorrow , 3 tests
Geography test , Social Studies test , E Maths test ! haishhhh D:

Anyway , chatted with my brother , Calvin , on facebook (:
Wow , he told me that Dad is going to buy him a new car for him ?!
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA ; I also want ):
T_________T
Yeah , he said , probably is " Jazz " white colour one :)
That looks nice ^^ .
haha !
And he said ,
maybe he's going to come to singapore,
after graduating from high school in SantaMaria , Indonesia .
hohoho , not going to Australia anymore ? so I'm not going too ? haha .
Probably he will come to singapore to continue his studies bah .
haha. come come :P
Accompany your dear sister here !
Haha , two more years ! :P wakakakka . by that time , i also graduate lerr :P
wakakakkakakak .
happy happy ,
brother'll come , and we'll fight again :D
i miss fighting with him =X
hahahahhahahaha ! no larr , at least got a brother who i can talk to :D
wakakakkaka .
He's older than me by a year nia .. sure always argue de x_____x

SEAFOOD

2010-02-01T23:41:00.000+08:00

O-M-G
almost every night ,
i got to bear with some weird food / seafood that Ah Mei Jie brought back from the restaurant she work at .
Haishhhhhhhh ~
Everytime damn full .
Sometimes i felt the food is so.............
I mean ... i don't eat those kind of food x______X
but still have to eat ..
otherwise feel very bad for her .
she's being too nice ><
every night bring back seafood ,
which is considered quite expensive
haishhhhhhhhhhhh .
how to avoid eating those alien food ? @@
and i just had LOBSTERS .
OMG , when i see it ..
i was like O______________O

KNN

2010-02-01T21:03:00.007+08:00

I love Katarina ♥
I love her the to the core ! HAHA
Thanks sayangqu for listening to all my problems and be my other ear (:
love you love you ! :P

Valentine ? Chinese New Year ? 14 February ?' Waiting .......

Anyway , after school ,
basketball match against Manjusri sec .
and lose .
For the three matches ,
I just sat and watch
today , i really hope i can play
but end up ...
hopeless .
U didn't even trust that i'll do my best
just coz i didn't attend training fully
u look down on me
Did u even ever ask me why i didn't turn up so often since last year till this year ?
U , as a teacher ,
say such deep words to me
u think that won't hurt huh ?
I have my own reasons ! Anyway , u also don't care right ? never ask .
U are just the same as others , judging people from the bad views .
Started to weep when LL & Jstn told me " don't cry lar , don't cry .. "
at first i don't care at all
i never cry
but when they talk to me like that
my tears drop
==. don't worth it .
i'm just wasting my time attending cca ,
in the end , no appreciation at all .
Just think , if one of you were me ,
how will you feel ?
such a dumbass !
knn -.-!
I'd rather not go for all tournament .
I have three tests tomorrow ,
and you all waste my time .
waste my time to study for my tests tmr .
pissed .

Puzzled

2010-01-31T12:48:00.008+08:00

Found this from Jasmine's tumblr :

"Just because somebody flirts with you doesn’t mean they like you. Just because somebody likes you doesn’t mean they want to go out with you. Just because somebody goes out with you doesn’t mean they love you. Just because somebody loves you doesn’t mean they won’t hurt you. Because people lie and things change, boyfriends cheat, best friends leave and there are always those people that would kill to see you fall."

It makes sense .

Let's just concentrate on my studies
Don't wanna disappoint my parents
Gotta pull up my results at sch
Forget about relationship
Making friends would be better

And now I'm still so stress .
None of you could actually understand the real me .
I wish to go to Pulau Ubin again ..
Go up high to a place like how i do last year ..
Then shout anything that i want to say
Say it out loud
Let the nature hear it
Let the sky be the witness

The picture above
was last year
I still remember myself shouting so loud
then when i got down from that high place ,
teacher scolded me ,
for being noisy
I don't care
I just want to let out those anger , sadness , disappointment
And , i wish to go there again .
):

Arghhhh ! My thumb got sliced by knife ,
while i was peeling of the fruits .
shyt.

Puihh !
Go and die larh you freaking motherfucker bitch neighbour !
You pressed the bell so many times,
which is really noisy and annoying
while i was studying ?!
Then when i open the door ,
you scolded me for the two plastics of rubbish which Ah Mei Jie put there .
Hellos ! Talk to me in a manner please .
I know it is wrong to put those rubbish there
but Ah Mei Jie is new to this environment ,
how would she know
and especially , i am not the one who put it there
why scolded me like a mum ?
fck you ! you pregnant woman talk like a bitchy boss ?!
still can threaten me and say
" iF this happen again , i will report it to the management "
" and i don't want to see this again ! "
and you gimme that fucking look from your face ?!
Knn ! Don't raise my temper or i will just kick you big stomach !
fck off from my sight u asshole neighbour !

SORRY

2010-01-30T14:40:00.009+08:00

Photo at the right side , was taken & edited by Agnes at Dhouby Ghaut .
Cindy emo-ing =X

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO * FARIDA *
wish u all the best ♥
and yesterday's BBQ at eastcoast park was really fun
although i was thrown with 2 eggs
while some of them are playing
my hair become so sticky and smelly ): haha .

anyway , i have been thinking of this for days.
this is gonna be hurtful .
in fact i don't even have enough courage to say this ,
but i can't bluff myself , or even you
yesterday ,
while i was in eastcoast park
cycling , walking by the seaside , looking at the round moon ,
i kept asking myself questions ,
kept thinking ,
and i realise that this shoudn't be the way
i feels like if i'm forcing myself to say out words , doing things ,
when i actually don't even intend to
when say the three words , i should be proud , but i'm not
seems like my feeling now and last time one , had changed .
i realise that there's no more feeling .
i thought i can be happier since i could see ur seriousness ,
but actually , i'm not
I'm already stress with sec 3 works ,
if i continue ,this means that i'm just lying to myself or you
since we've not officially back,
as i told u it should be 1st feb ,
i got to say this .
i have been thinking for nights,
do you realise that everytime u talk to me ,
i will have nothing to say
being so speechless
keeping quiet all the time
* that is not the real me *
* i don't want to be that kind of person *
* i simply don't understand why is it that whenever i'm with u , i'll have nothing to say *
* seriously , i don't even know why *
you deserve someone better
I should stop questioning myself , forcing my own feeling
i got to tell u the truth ,
read this , hope u can understand me .
i know this will be hurt
hurtful to you
hurtful to me too
the three words,
u're always the one who will said " must say what ? "
i mean , i will say it if i feel like saying it
however , i said it coz u want it ,
that is not me ):
everything , i will do or say it through how i felt towards you
i don't need people to ask me to do so.
people may advise me , but don't force me
I'm so sorry .
I don't want you to get mad
I don't want o be hated for this
I don't wish to hurt anyone
I'm just revealing what i have to say .
I'm not even sure of my own feelings ,
again , i'm so sorry
i hope u could understand what i mean - positively .
I felt bad for this , but it will be worse if i continue to bluff myself and u , urself .
I'm realy really sorry . Let's just be normal friends .
Friendship will last longer than a relationship .
That's all i have to say
Thanks for your cares
and lastly SORRY . . .

Oh damn it , I got a headache now , feels like vomitting
not feeling well ==
haish ............
gonna meet a friend tonight,
hope she can calm me down ):

and , Beau is leaving singapore tonight ,
everyone is going to the airport to send her back
and for the last time meeting her
I've met her yesterday
wish her goodluck in Thailand
and thanks for being our friends for years.
Sorry i couldn't go to the airport .
i wish too ,
but now i got to calm myself down by meeting one of my indo friend .
Bye Beau , takecare there (:

SWT !

2010-01-28T22:16:00.004+08:00

Dahh balekan ?
seneng iya ga seneng juga iya
gw bingung ama perasaan ndri
emank sih kali ini gw percaya aja ama dia
and iini kesempatan terakhir dia but ...
let me be myself ...
gw ga mauu mengatakan ato melakukan apapun yg gw kurang mau
jadi gw cuma berharap dia bs ngerti
emank sih dia ga bakal ngerti apa yg gw tulis skrg
kecuali kalo dia nanya tmn nya yg indo
tp ttp aja ...
ini smua kan tergantung ama sikap dia jg
ga mungkin kan kata2 romantis gw sebut" kalo ga ada artinya
mendingan gw diem" aja
haishhhhhh ==.

anyway , learnt something .
girls , jgn nunggu sms dr cow mulu
krn ternyata cow tersebut jg menunggu sms kita
sometimes ,kita yg hrus mulai dluan .

LOVE ?

2010-01-26T20:00:00.007+08:00

Hufhhhh , Fail my maths test ): ): hell .
Seriously i had a hard time understanding wtf the teacher is teaching .
Sighhhhhhhhhh ~

Anw , met HW and MY after sch ~
Yeah , JM and B accompanied me since JM also want to see MY .
HAHAHAHA .
Anyway , ZHH tag me on a note about *love* ,
helping me to make a better decision , eventhough i actually don't know who is ZHH .
HAHA .

anyway , this is what is inside the note that i was tagged on the facebook :

"Cinta"

Today at 6:35pm

cinta adalah suatu perasaan yg muncul dari hati yg pling dalam kepada seseorang yang qta sayang,
tp kenapa cinta qta sering tidak terbalas sesuai keinginan qta??
sering kali yang qta dapatkan cuma sakit hati yg tak kunjung hilang..
cinta itu kadang membahagiakan hidup seseorang, tp kadang juga menyengsarakan hidup seseorang.
orang bisa hancur karna cinta yg hilang..
cinta itu sangat mempengaruhi kita,
akan tetapi banyak org yang bermain dengan cinta..
karna itu cinta sejati sulit di dapat tanpa usaha keras..
kadang usaha qta mencari cinta sejati, membuahkan hasil yang baik n bisa saja buruk..
hasil yang buruk menimbulkan sakit hati
sakit hati membuat kita merasa dendam n ingin membalas sakit hati..
padahal membalas sakit hati itu hanya membuat kesengrasaan bagi dirinya sendiri n mantan pasangan'a.
kita harus merelakan cinta yg hilang dan menerima cinta yg baru,
karena dengan ini, hati qta akan merasa lebih baik,
n kalau kita menutup hati qta rapat2 untuk menunggu cinta yang hilang,
itu sama saja menyiksa diri sendiri n membuang waktu qta untuk mendapatkan cinta sejati..
kita ga akan tw kapan cinta itu datang n pergi..
kita harus selalu siap menghadapi resiko pacaran atau bercinta..

copied from ZHH's note on FB

I finally made a clear decision !

2010-01-25T21:22:00.005+08:00

Today ,
basketball tournament against Ngee Ann Sec ~
hooos . . lose again .
& seriuosly ,
so disappointed ,
never get to play at all .
nvm , forget it .

And now my mind is so full of ...............................
sigh ~
nahh , so many people advice me about something (:
and thanks for the advice :D
i really appreciate that ^^
and i also have decided that
* gue ga mau jadian ama dia *
wkwkkwkwkkwkwkw ! :P
so byebyebyebyebyebyebye.
so just be prepared it .

( actually i'm still confused =X )

walaupun gw ga enaq ama dia ..
gra" uda di ksh gantungan hp tuh ..
tp tetep aja gw ga mauu lah di maenin gtu ..
mank gw bodohhh apa ==.
swt .
dahh akh ...
mendingan gw mikir gmn cara nmng ke dia* ..
supaya gw ama dia bs tetep temenan , but not jadian (:
wkwkwkkwkw .

What Day Was It ?

2010-01-23T23:50:00.003+08:00

22 January 2010

Had my fringe cut at aunty Karen's salon yesterday ,
at balestier plaza ~
haha !
Then went out with Agnes and Aditya in the evening ~
watched " ToothFairy " at the cathay dhoubyghaut .
nice movie (:

23 January 2010

Went to bugis today with some schoolmates (:
anyway , made new indonesian friends , Erica and Cia :D
hehehehe .
luckily there are indonesian girls there :) so at leat i have people to talk to :)
anyway ...
i don't know if i should make today as a one memorable day ..
yeahhh , coz of something .
and now ,
i'm in a dilemma .

Gw suka apa ga yah ?
Trima apa ga yah ?
But ................
Duhhhh , bingung gw x___x
Haishhhhhhh ` ~

It's Monday

2010-01-18T21:13:00.003+08:00

It's Monday !

Basketball Tournament today ~
The boys team win (: yay ! gratz ya ~
However , the girls team lose ):
too bad , anglican high school was really tough ><

~ ~ ~ ~ { > 0 < } ~ ~ ~ ~

" Don't get close to him , otherwise u will start to like him "
" Don't be so emo , coz that makes you wanna find one "
" Don't hope too much on him , coz it might disappoint you "
" Don't try to like , if you don't want to get a broken-heart "
" Don't keep waiting , coz he might not want to "
" Don't fall in love , coz it'll just hurt yourself "

~ AIKO ~

InsanitoriuM outing (:

2010-01-17T20:12:00.007+08:00

LAZY TO BLOG x________x

16 January 2010

Sabrina , her sister , and her cousin come to my house for swimming :D . So yea , had a morning exercise ? waakakaka !
Then her parents came to fetch them , but instead they came to my house to sit and talk 1st while waiting for Sab and the others to shower . HAHA . So paisehhh ><

So yeahh , around 3pm like that , went for auditionSEA FAM outing :P Hmm , at 1st i didn't feel like going coz my mood was not really good . But in the end , i enjoy the day at orchard :D
First time meeting Joy ( ~J ) and Clarence ( ~BOY~ ) at Jcube >< . People who came on that day : Karina , Ferra , Christian , Wianto , Rion and Richard . Later on , Agnes came :P hoho !
At 1st we want to watch movie , but the timing was not good , so we went for pool :P wakakaka . Dumbass me ! 1 week never play jiu forget how to play le ><>ersonians at cineleisure . Actually I was quite shocked to see so many ppl there >< . Then at night Marshely and Marshela came too :D Then go Jcube played auditionSEA together :)
After that , around 11pm , we decided to go for midnight movie which was at 12.15 ><>< . walking walking , damn tiring ): anyway , they stayed overnight :D so fun ^^ . chat chat .

17 January 2010

@______@
Karina woke us up ><>< ! HAHA .anyway , i deleted one weird pic of mine . HAHAHA . Ps yo karina :P . Around 11 , Marshely and Marshela went back to their home , while Christian , Rion , Karina , Ferra and me , went to the opposite City Square Mall to ahve our lunch at Seoul Garden :D haha ! nice meal ^^ . After that went to timezone , wasted so much qian just for playing >< . Christian and Ferra kept topping up their timeaone card just to play a game ( candies - sweet ) , just to get a jackpot . In the end , GOT IT ! :D . thx yo for the effort and letting me to take the winnie the pooh pillow :) Then all go home :D . End of the outing . The outing was like , 24-26 hours ? haha @@ .

2010-01-04T21:03:00.002+08:00

SCHOOL REOPEN ! ):

1ST DAY OF SCHOOL = SUPER BORING AND TIRING ! ! ! !

Taekkk ! Msa bru msk skola aja uda ada ekskul . Capekkk x taooo . EEq ! Di tmbh lg tugas2 SLB , udah gw ga pege meeting ga tw apa2 buat orientation . Ngehekkkk .. mending gw quit ! == . Mendingan focus on study drpd ribet == .

2009-12-31T23:06:00.002+08:00

♥ MERRY CHRISTMAS & HAPPY NEW YEAR 2010 ♥

Hopefully next year would be better :] Safe , great & enjoying life ♥

I hate today

2009-12-14T20:09:00.004+08:00

I'M BACK TO SINGAPORE ! ):

I'm still missing them . Every tears that drop from their eyes and my eyes recounts what we have done together as bestfriends . I hate to leave them , but I have to , just because of this fcking cca , fcking sch . Really love them : Sherliana , Febby , Nia , Cynthia , Devi , Marsela . Thanks for the wonderful day which was yesterday , before Ileft .

L-O-V-E ~ ~ ~

M-Y b-e-s-t-f-r-i-e-n-d-s ! ♥~

Thanks for the wonderful day

2009-11-09T10:21:00.002+08:00

5 november 09

Went back to Indonesia with R , W & W's mum . Sth happened and irritated R and me . Nvm . Without thought , they left us , at first till me met at Batam . wth . But then we were together from Batam to Pekanbaru.

6 november 09

Went to SantaMaria, my old school, to meet my BFFs : sherliana, febby, nia & marsela and meet my other close friends ♥.
Hendy gimme ride to santamaria . Thanks lots . Then we both went to eat steak while the sec3s in santamaria were all having complusory tuition/remidial . (: veRy nice foof anyway . Thanks again .. Then went back to Santamaria and had chat with my dear friends . Alright , everyone gimme that one kind of look , coz they had not seen me for so long =x . Then Febby, Nia, Sherliana , Ari , Hendy and me went to have Es Rumput Laut nearby to sch . Then went back sch , chatted with friends . However, Ari and Hedny got scolded my the principal coz they drifted their car in sch . Anyway , great day , i met them* alrdy (:

7 november 09

Went to Mall Ciputra Seraya with my hendy, ari, febby, sherliana and nia♥. Great day . We went KFC for lunch 1st , then go for photobox , then K-Box . Hendy didn't sing at all == . Lol .After that , windowshopping , then met ari and hendy at Solaria. After that go home (: Thnks again to hendy for the ride .

8 november 09

Supposedly, sherliana and me would meet nia and febby at gramedia : a big bookshop , but end up they couldn't come coz no one could ride them there. So sherliana and me just stayed in hendy's car , going around Diponegoro , then waited in the car for more than 2 hours while waiting for Hendy's meeting at Invuz. Sherliana had a hard time actually , coz her Mum kept calling her and asked her to go home , but the meeting ended so late x.x .

Great BBQ Day

2009-10-27T23:18:00.009+08:00

Hoho ! BARBEQUE !

Early in the morning , I felt drunk X___X . Idk why suddenly I felt so dizzy . To think of what I had eaten the night before , there was nothing wrong with plain rice,fish ,nugget,egg & chicken wings. LOL. Around 11am , I went down to book the Barbeque Pit with the secutiry guard . Haiyo , I need to deposit $100 == . Nvm , tmr get back the deposit .

Around 4.50pm , our BBQ started . Here are the people who came : Jade, Bea, Sabrina, Yumin, Guanjie, Jaye, Bernard, Sengyang & Shankar . Hehe thanks for coming to my condo (: . Then we all started to put up the fire for the bbq. Very hard , somehow. Haha , anyway , this indeed a great day , really :D . We had fun . While Jade,Bea & Guanjie were preparing for the food , we ( Shankar, Sengyang, Bernard, Jaye, Sabrina , Yumin & me ) went for swimming . We played with a ball , throwing at each other . Exciting . Around 8pm we started to eat (: . After eating , all of them went for swimming while I watched the table for belongings . After that sat beside the pool , talking to Mum on phone (: . Hehe , then looked at the beautiful night with a moon ❤ .

Around 9.45pm , we went up to my house . Dried ourselves up . Then continued to watch Destination Truth - elves ? Idk what is it . Don't get to watch , coz i was cooking instant noodle for some of them . Then washed plates . Thx to those who helped me with the cooking & cleaning of the utensils. Around 11pm , they went home . ❤ love the day .

Lazy Lazy Dead Blog

2009-10-27T00:59:00.001+08:00

Too lazy to update my blog X____X No mood =.=

Nevermind . Bye (: nites . tc .

PIG

2009-10-20T23:14:00.003+08:00

LAZY PIG .

Aiyoo , woke up around 1oam in the morning coz Jaya sms me -.-! And for the conclusion , maybe the boys are not going for ice-skating ): . nvm . haish . Maybe tmr I'll go ice-skate with Sabrina & Atikah .

So bored , so decided to SLEEP AGAIN . From 1pm to 4.30pm . ==! haish . Just like a pig , so lazy . Sigh . I dreamt of sherliana,febby,nia,fanny & imelda ( my friends in indo ) . Hiks , i miss them s much T_____T . After that watched TV , then cooked friedrice for my dinner (: . Delicious ^^ . Haha ! =D

Then at night tagged hearts for audition with -Azure . LOL .

HOHOHO

2009-10-19T22:23:00.006+08:00

15 October 2009 ◕‿◕

♥ HAPPY BIRTHDAY to my dear little brother , CONAN ! :D
haha ! wish you luck & all the best (: ily bro (:
HAPPY 5 years old ^^ .

16 October 2009 ◕‿◕

♥ Went to Plaza Singapura , meeting Karina,Ferra,Catherine,Yizhen,Marshely,Marshela & 1 more person :)
hehehe . love the day ! Then continue to Jcube :D , play audition at there (: .
Play till around 11.30pm . Then went off . Marshely,Marshela,Ferra,Karina & me walked from Orchard to RiverValley to see the beautiful scenery of bridge . lol x.x . It was damn tiring , but FUN ♥ haha ! memorable day . Arrived home at around 2.30am or 3am at midnight x.x . omg @_@ . my 1st trial , coming back so late . Haha anyway thx to karina for accompanying me home , using same cab (: .wakaka .

17 October 2009 ◕‿◕

My Ahkong,Ahma,uncle and aunty came to singapore . Just had dinner with some friends of family . Damn full , but great food . Hoho , i got to taste the Henessy beer x.x siao 40% but im not dunk , drank a bit only . haha , since all of them drank it too >< .Then tried Tiger beer a bit . haha . After dinner went to Mustafa centre , hoho thx ya ahkong , he bought a wireless router for me (: .

18 October 2009 ◕‿◕

Shopping ! Ahking , Ahma , Uncle , Aunty and me went to Bugis at first . Then Chinatown ! So yeah , ahkong bought a PSP for my cousin ( Vincent ) == . Then bought 3 NDS for my little brother , sister & my other cousin . Thx a lot anyway to Ahkong , on behalf of my siser & brother . LOL.

19 October 2009 ◕‿◕

This morning , ahkong , ahma , uncle & aunty went to China . Then afternoon , meeting my dear beibh , catherine , at orchard (: . Watch movie '' Fame '' at Cineleisure . Wonderful movie ! However,in the cinema , we saw two singaporean girls , lifting their legs up upon the chain . wtf ! They thought that place is their home arh ? So impolite . And one thing ya girls , both of your feet didn't smell nice at all (: . And you both were just fcking noisy . Laugh so loud for what ? Want the whole ppl in the cinema to know ? Not funny okay! Somemore u both sat near beibh & me . It's so distracting , annoying . Don't act cool lehs , not even pretty == . Anyway , the movie was about performing arts . Damn cool ! :D people , if u all have time , go and watch that movie . Worth ur money & ur future . haha ! :D ♥ beibh Catherine .

Ouch , td XY telp gw >< . Soalnya td pagi gw sms dia , tnyain no hp papa nya di china . Anyway , haha dia telp , gw juga dah seneng . hoho . A brother ??? haha ! Dia ngmng ke aq pake bhs mandarin td x.x . Untung aja ngerti.. sigh . Wish can go out with him , somedays , go to play . haha :D .

GEOGRAPHY paper sucks

2009-10-14T21:05:00.006+08:00

Hoho . Yeah , Today's Geography paper sucks ! I've got no enough time to complete it . Fk ==!

Anyway , I my relatives this afternoon . They're very kind :) . How I wish to have such an understanding parents and siblings . They're just different from my real brother ( Calvin ) and my father . They're better , I guess . Nice to meet them :D.

Hehe thx to Wirvan dah dgrin curhat gw . wakakaka . I'm over-excited =X . Ps ya van . kwokwok.

Oh shyt ! I really couldn't concentrate to study for my MATHS paper 2 tmr -.-! GRRR . Nvm 2 more exams to go , then FREE ! hohoho :D

Nahh , awalnya gw ngira dia* tuh baeq . Tp stelah chatting , gw jd bingung ndri & gw ga pnsaran sbrnnya sifat aslinya gmn .. Soalnya pas chatting , gw ga tau mna yg dia tulis , mna yg di tulis ama tmn nya or tmnnya punya kk . Duhh bingung ah == . Some nonsense chat . -.- Haishh , jgn smpe deh mrk jd negative-thinking -.-! swt . Moga" aja dia* tuh orgnya emank bnran baeq , kk yg peratian ama dd nya , walaupun sodara jauh . Amin .

Exam

2009-10-12T14:07:00.002+08:00

No mood for blogging , having End-Of-Year Examnination .

Bye . Takecare :)

BANGS doesn't suit me

2009-10-06T19:27:00.007+08:00

OMG OMG OMG OMG ):

My fringe sucks ):

Hiks Hiks ):

I regret for having my fringe cut ):

It sucks when i tied my hair up ):

It's quite weird ):

Alright , when i stepped into the class this morning , ppl was like , O_O , looking at my fringe . Aiyooo T^T . I really shouldn't have go there* to cut ): . Many ppl asked , " eh Cindy , u cut bangs arh ? " alamakkkkkk , u see alrdy , then still ask ==. hufhh . anyway nvm ): .Erwin & Ruzaini said I became look like a japanese girl . LOL ! Damien said , " u cut ur fringe with bowl ? " @@ . haha . Nvm larh , as long as when i put my hair down , it doesn't look bad :D.

Last period was ART ! Sketch some drawing of ' cycling ' . I did the ART from 12.50pm to 16.15pm . LOOOL . So late right . Class was supposed to be dismissed at 2.20pm . haha , whole class stayed back . wakakka . Anyway , I worked so hard for my ART , hope Mdm Kavitha would give a satisfying mark . I want to win her in ART ! :)

HAIR-CUT!

2009-10-05T21:10:00.005+08:00

HAIR-CUT ! >< .

After school , went to orchard with Sabrina,Bea & Vania . At first we wanna went to bugis national library , but it was cancelled as Ruzaini & Anisah could not follow us coz they needed to finish up their ART . Most of the 2A , 2D & 2C stayed back for ART today . LOL !

Firstly , sabrina,bea,vania & me went to ION orchard (: . First time went there . Hoho anyway there was nothing much at ION since it's still new . Expensive & branded outlets were all there .

Secondly , we went to lucky plaza to relax at macdonald . Had lunch , damn full . Then we tried to do the comprehension homework given by the english teacher . End up , never do anything . Can't concentrate on studies ==. Haishh .

After that Bea went to meet Illya while Vania went to meet Justin . Then Sabrina & me went Parkway Parade to meet Erwin,Ruzaini,Jonathan & John . They wanted to cut hair , except for Jonathan . As I decided to have my fringe cut too , so i followed them . Lol . Then went to a place opposite Parkway . John said it was a Philipino salon , haiyoo idk larh . Anyway , Erwin had his hair cut abit . I had my fringe cut , from slide style to a mushroom style ? Lols . Then Ruzaini had his hair cut too . John decided not to cut at last ! Haha . Thx to Sabrina for accompanying me . Hope ur father won't scold u for going home late . hehe . Then Erwin,Jonathan & me went off 1st coz our bus came 1st . The bus stopped at bugis . After that , all of us went home , tookbus to go back again .

Great day ya (: At least i had fun being with Bea,Sabrina & Vania . Jade didn't come to sch today coz she got food-poisoning . get well soon ya (: . Thx to for the E,J,J & R for the day . Anway at 1st i thought this new hairstyle is so ugly . But after sometime , it doesn't look so bad. haha ! Just wait for the side of the fringe to grow longer (:

pissed off

2009-10-02T19:49:00.007+08:00

My hand got blueblack again ): haish , but nvm (: at least felt more relieved . I got so pissed by J & L . I just dunno why today i suddenly got upset coz of J . Anyway,nvm bah . Mother tongue class,mdm nooraini nvr come ,so we just slack (: . Haish,the whole period , i gave a badmood face . Yeah i think many ppl have seen my black face just now . Then i punched the door to relieve my anger . End up , hurting my own hand . haha ! blueblack . nvm , used to it :)

After school hung out with jade,sabrina,bea,vania & her bf at bubbletea shop . Chatted for about 2 hours . hehe . Not long after that , sab's bf joined us . Then ruzaini,khairyl,zainul,adli and jafri came too.Then around 3pm plus , went home .

HANDS UP

2009-09-30T20:26:00.003+08:00

Back to blog (:

Today , sabrina , jade , vania & me scratched out own hand with a compass . For jade , a bit bleeding . For me & the others , red ! We use the top of the compass to poke and scratch it on our hands . For fun + a bit of stress . LOL

Anyway , sabrina's phone got confiscated . To whom have reported to the teacher , just wait for sabrina's revenge (: . And to whom have reported to Ms Ong about our hands , pls just fk off & stfu ! It's not even ur business / ur problem . Want to sabo for what huh ! Knn ! Luckily Ms Ong didn't send us for caunselling -.-! And she said she would not tell our parents for this time . Haiyoo , even if she didn't tell my parents , i also will tell them on my own . lmao . Just don't come & find problem with us larh u losers x) . Just said u are too scared to do that on ur hand . We did that coz we dare and brave enough to do that . But still , it's all none of ur business , so why should u report it to teacher ? Just get lost . Like haru said , maybe u are just jealous coz u didn't have the courage to use the compass and hurt ur own hand right ! Lastly, just fk off (:

BACK !

2009-09-29T23:12:00.001+08:00

I'M BACK (:

Finally the internet problem is solved (: . Some guests came today to stay at my house . I haven't even see their faces clearly . Anyway they are indo . My stranger , my guardian's friends. LOL .

Anyway happy belated birthday to Richard ( koko cacad ^^ ) on 19 sept :) ^^ wish ua ll the best :D

( continue next time ) gonna sleep soon . byes.

iloveyou xuanha! thanks

2009-09-19T23:11:00.002+08:00

English tuition from 11.30am to 1.30pm . Then chinese tuition at 2.00pm to 4.45pm . Tired , so sleepy ):

After that packed up all the things to move it to home . Thx to Ngoc Anh,Norena,Shasa,Chou and beloved god-sista Xuanha (: They helped me in packing all those . Thanks for the time . After that xuanha and me brought down all the things downstair . Thx to stephanie for helping to some of them down . Seriously , the things are damn heavy ! After that xuanha & me took a taxi to City Square . It was already night , since there are too many things to carry , i brought some with me 1st , then brought it up to the room while xuanha waited at downstair to look after the other things . Then i went down again , this time , xuanha & me carried the rest of the things , still it's super heavy ! Our hands became so red . Our hand muscles should become stronger bah , hahahha! Anyway thanks a lot to xuanha :D ily sista ^^ . Thx for helping me to carry all those . Haha , yes we have a hard time carrying them , damn heavy @@ . & in fact there are still some more ): . Anyway great day with you . thx for the day & for all ♥ loves~ wonderful dinner with you :D

Badmood !

2009-09-18T18:08:00.003+08:00

BADMOOD . BADMOOD . BADMOOD !!!!!

Seriously i got so irritated by my father ! He's really annoying ! I really dislike his attitude . Commanding people , doesn't want to hear people's opinion , etc , all of that really annoy me ! He asked me to move all by things in the hostel to home by myself . Hey , how many hands and legs do u think i have ? I only have 1 pair of hand and 1 pair of legs , and yet u kept asking me to bring all of that on my own . Do u know how heavy are all the things that i need to carry ? Even if u were me , i don't think u can carry all those ! Why can't u just try to understand my situation ? Is it so hard to listen to what i want to say ? You just kept talking , commanding , blaming , and whatever is it ! Can't u realise ur fcking attitude ! Sorry to use badword , but i really can't stand this feeling . I'm ur daughter okay , but u care about your friend more than me . If u care about their feeling , then why can't u understand and care for my feeling too ? My feeling is really hurt ! I almost cried when i talked to u , but i hold my sound & my tears , coz i knew if didn't hold it , you would even scolded me more right ? Get lost !
After talking to father on the phone , i smsed mother & asked her to call me . So yeah , i shared my feelings to her , and turned up to be , SAME -.- At least mother is better , she gave me solutions , but still i won't take that solutions . Bring two baggages on my own ? NO ! I would rather carry one by one. After too much of talk , again i got irritated , so in the end , i PUNCH my room door . That's what i do in SG if i'm in a badmood , better than to keep in inside heart . Oh yes , i cried when talking to mother ): A feeling of anger , disappointment , confusion , broken-heart coz of family !

After that i rushed to City Square-home , bringing some clothes to move to . Haishhh . On the way back , i went to find the bus stop which i could take buses to go to school and to go back to hostel . The bus stop is quite far , i think .

After arrived at hostel , chatted with wirvan a while . I told him about my father . See , even wirvan also said that father's way of talking to me is TOO MUCH !

Sleeping day

2009-09-15T20:23:00.004+08:00

Today's lesson was quite okay :) I should say it's great ! English lesson , can sleep :) since it was a relief techer who came in to our class . Next lesson was PE , YAY ! Mr Riffaii wasn't there , so cikgu Usman came & asked the whole class for self-study without making noise . So yeah , class was very quite at that time , i studied science at 1st , in the end , go sleep coz everyone was like sleeping too :D . Next lesson again , it was science , and Mr Chin didn't came to our class ! Relief teacher again ! WOW ! So , sleep & chat again with sabrina & vania :) . After that recess , i saw Mr Chin walked pass , idk why he didn't came for our science lesson , anyway it's nice that he didn't come coz Ihatehim ! After recess was maths lesson . I thought that this time teacher will come , and eventually , RELIEF TEACHER again ! What a great day . Then do some maths worksheet , after that sleep again ? haha ! Then history lesson , this time Ms Ong came , so lesson as per normal .

After that ART ! HAHA i love art :D Then Mdm Kavitha [ art teacher ] asked me :

Mdm Kavitha : '' Cindy , are you taking ART next year ? If not i will whack your head . "

Cindy : ( laughing+smiling ) " Hehehe , NO :) "

Mdm Kavitha : HUH ?!

Jade : '' Hmmm , teacher , are you going to whack her head ? "

Mdm Kavitha : '' Yes , I will !

Mdm Kavitha : '' Cindy , what rank of choice do you put ART in the form ? "

Cindy : ( laugh+smile again ) " Hehehe , FOURTH :D "

Mdm Kavitha : " WHAT ?! " ( giving me a hopeless look )

Jade & Sabrina : ( laugh )

Aiyoo , so sorry to Mdm Kavitha . I knew she's hoping on me since my art is quite good . But frankly speaking , i don't dare to take art . Seeing the seniors do the paper cutting , i think i'm too lazy to do it . Drawing & colouring are okay to me . But cutting , i'm lazy . Psps . So to disappoint you , Mdm Kavitha ): Anyway ART lesson is always fun , to me , as usual . Haha .

Problems between a couple , Illya & Bea . Hope you both can solve the matter . After sch , saw them walking to the ITE bus stop , not talking to each other . Both were in anger ==! Whatever la . Couples are like this . Jade was confused the whole day about this matter while Sabrina was scared as she was afraid that Bea , Illya or Jade would get angry at her after telling Illya some things . Luckily , i'm not involved in this matter :) . Hoho . Hope Bea & Illya would not break up just because of this matter . Hope u both can understand each other better . And if any of you two [ the couple ] know that what u did , was wrong , then don't do it again ! Jealousy often makes some misunderstandings.

Start of School

2009-09-14T21:03:00.002+08:00

School reopen ! Today's morning assembly took two periods ! Supposed it's only one period . Siao la , sat in the hall for so long . Somemore i got stomachache and it was damn hot in the hall . By the time the principal finished her speech about 'safety' & 'etc' , it was already 1 period , and yet it's not the end . The vice principal continued her talk again ? Wth ! After that , it was Mr Chin's talk about safety at road ?! The Mrs Lee Tan continued again with environment safety ? wtf . After that Mr Alex Tay continued again , then in the end Mr Mok dismissed the students added with a few talk . Fck off to those ppl who talked today ! Everyone was like dying over their very very long speech & I got so irritated and i punched the wall after the dismissal. Hell ! The more the teacher talk , the more students who will not listen to them and get annoyed ! Take not teachers ! ==!

I have choosen & submitted the form to Mr Riffaii on the subjects which i'm gonna take next year . Here're the subjects :

English
Mother Tongue [ Malay ]
E-Maths
Combined Science [ Physics & Biology ]
Combined Humanities [ Social Studies & Geography ]
POA
A-Maths [ not sure ]

Most probably i'll be in the same class with Bea,Sabrina,Vania,Jonathan,etc. . . . hehehe :D

Anyway skipped CCA . Sorry Coach . This time i didn't let him know about my absence . I just don't feel like going . Haish , was quite confused . Should I cut my hair into a straight fringe ? Or shall i just let it be like now ? Kept asking many people , hahahaha ! After school went to a bubble tea shop . I went to a bubble tea shop which i never buy any drink from there before. Usually i go to the other stall . Lols. And in fact , the usual stall ' s chocolate ice-blended was much nicer ! I dun wanna buy from the stall which i went to today again , next time .Hehe .

Then while walking to ITE bus stop , met Jonathan,Ronald,Fernando,Donny and Harris . Then we went to toapayoh together for lunch . Ate at KFC , very fun :D . Haha ! They're just funny sometimes :) . At least can make me laugh :D .

Then went back hostel , settle the form about making the applicant for studdent pass , as i am gonna move out from hostel on Sunday . Hehe .

Thanks for the day

2009-09-11T21:38:00.003+08:00

Morning went to school for basketball 3 vs 3 match . Boys and girls played against each other - with their teamates . My teammates were LiYi and YunTing . Lucky ! & eventually our team got third among all (: Gonna get medal ? haha 1st time ^^ . Anyway thx to Jastine for helping me to play for the last match coz i'm too tired + stomachache . Lols.

Afternoon - Night , went to a new shopping centre ( Is it called ' Iluma ' ?? ) at bugis . 1st time went there since it's still new. Went there with Erwin,Ivan,Jonathan,Vincent,Ronald & Harris . Watched movie : " 9 " ( it's the title ) . The movie was quite nice :) . O_O the movie is so short , less than 1 and the half hour , Lols ! At first i thought i must rushed back to hoste, coz i thought the movie will end at 9pm . But the movie actually finished at around 8.40pm . Lols ! So fast . Haha . Anyway on our way going back home , Harris was quite silly i should say . He asked Erwin to write a message to his uncle to ask for permission to go home a bit late . However , Erwin wrote a funny message .Haha . Then Harris just sent the message without reading that message . After it was sent , then he read it and everyone laughed like hell . We thought he read it already ! Haha ! In the end , i went home while the boys ( except Ronald ) went to play LANgames . Anyway tthx for the accompaniment to the bus stop nea my hostel (: & thx for the day .

SWT

2009-09-09T19:39:00.003+08:00

08 September '09

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO Jade Rivera & Stephanie Wisely :D chocolates for both of you :) Hope u both like it .

[ The art very nice right :D hahaha ! ]

Footwork-Street Dance at Esplanade . Love the moves :) I learnt something new . Haha ! The choreographers were damn cool ! Haha !

At night just went to ShawPlaza to buy some food at ntuc fairprice . Then met KimDu at there . LOL ! He kept calling me ' stupid ' ==! HE = DURIAN !!!! Hahahaha ! Then walked back to hostel together , just talked about his gf ( Josephine ) . Of course everyone was quite shocked to know that he's now with J . So unbelievable . What a taste -.-! Sintya & me laughed like hell .

09 September '09

09.09.09 = What does the day actually mean today ? Some said it is the when we'll go out with our love ? Is it ? I don't know . Luckily HW ( ex ) didn't ask me out again , sigh - relieved . I don't wanna go back to him -.-! Two chances & he didn't use it properly , so bye :D Being friend is better than being bf ( that's what i always think ) . O_O

Anyway english tuition today ! From 9am to 1.15pm ==! so long -.-! Do comprehension + a stack of paper of vocabulary,grammar & cloze passage . Ms Lim so evil ): huhu . But she's the best teacher i ever had :) She's fun ! Haha.

Around 3.30pm , went to jcube , dhouby ghaut , to mee Karina :D . Hehehe . Played at jcube for 2 hours . The accompanied Karina to PlazaSing to buy medicine . After that , went back to hostel :) .

Huhu , koq laptop gw ga bs maen audi segh ? Kangenn ama audi ): hiks . Apa yg slh sih sbnrnya ? Patch nya ato laptop gw ? Haishhh ==. Lagian patchnya juga seh troublesome bgt -.-! Swt .

Happy 15 to Erwin

2009-09-07T14:57:00.003+08:00

6 September '09 ( updated )

HAPPY BIRTHDAY to Erwin Wirawan. May all ur wishes come true. Moga" makin pinter+cakep , sehat slalu+panjang umur :D Wish u all d best :)

I gifted him a wallet - white colour . Lol . Hope he likes it (:

Went to my condo , City Square Residence . Haish , went there alone . Went there around 3pm . Just stayed in d master room , watched TV , looked at the beautiful view & took some pics :D .

7 September '09

Went to school with Eric . Malay Oral Examination ! Panic Panic x.x ! Nvm i'm relieved now . Haha ! The oral was about history -.-!
Weeleee, ternyata si L juga ksh E dompet ( Ripcurl - black ) - tp dia share ama yg laen . Haishh , ntah napa gw agk kecewa aja gtu pas tw dia bli dompet juga -.- ASDFGHJKL . Whateva ==.
After arrived at hostel , had a talk with Jackie for a while , talked about E . Lols .
After that went for English tuition for 2 hours . Then , REST ! :D

Great Day

2009-09-05T22:51:00.004+08:00

4 September '09

Got my report book (: results are better compared to my mid-year results ^^. Hoho . I'm so happy , my first time got A2 for english , 74.6 , almost got A1 >< . Ms Lim was glad too (: . Hhe. But i'm still confused which sciece i should take for next ear in sec 3. The form to choose d subjects was given out already , & yet i'm still not sure . I'm gonna take combined science . Should i take { physcis & biology } OR { physics & chemistry } ??? Huhuhuhu D:

5 September '09

After english tuition ( finished at 4pm ) , went to meet Mike , Karina , cc Doreen & ko Denny at jcube , dhouby ghaut . Then went around PlazaSing . After that they went to jcube again to play computer. After a while ,i then went to Toapayoh to meet Katarina . After that went to Shawplaza , meeting Erwin,Jonathan,Ivan,Vincent,Donny & Harris for a movie " The Time Traveler Wife " ( i'm not really sure what's the title ) . Anyway movie was quite okay bah. After watching the movie , then we went to balestier market to have some drinks . Almost 10pm le , then Katarina & I went home 1st while they were going to buy their food . Haha . After that i sent Katarina to the bus stop , wait for the bus a while , then went back hostel (: Thx for the day ^^~

Confusion + Dilemma

2009-09-03T18:13:00.007+08:00

[ Vincent & Me ] friends foreva :D

Woots . After recess , before mother tongue lesson , suddenly Chen came & told laksmi that Liyi & her wallet were found on the floor around their tables. Who the hell was it actually ?! Wallets were found but all the money inside gone. Haish , i'm really speechless. Ada yg blg mngkn itu tuh si ly ndri yg rekayasa ngilangin dompet dia ndri skaligus nyuri dompet lksm. Sdgkan jade mrasa kalo yg rekayasa tuh mrk berdua , the both L . Gw bingung juga sich , soalnya kmrn sore pas cca gw nampak ly buka dompet truz ambil uang buat beli minuman. Tp gw ga tw itu dompet sapa . Kalo itu emang dompet lksm ato dompet dia , brarti dia yg rekayasa & boongin smua org . Haish , pusink gw lha mikirin neh . Napa coba seh arus nyuri ==! Gw cuma pgn tau siapa sbnrnya yg nyuri ipod gw ama ipodnya haru . Pencuri , go to hell -.-! Nyadar donk , dosa tau ==! swt.

Pas plajaran English , last lesson , curhat2 ama vincent . DUhhh , they kept asking me the same question , asking me 'how if e like me ?' , 'do i like e?' AAAAAAAAAAA,seriously idk la . I'm not mad about him like L do . Somestimes i also dunno whether i like him or not . Gw mrasa seh biasa2 aja. Di blg suka , juga ga terlalu. Gw aja ga ada harapan apa2. But kadang2 gw mrasa sesuatu . Haishhhh , pucink dagh . mls mikirin truz ==.

After sch , then went to sportlink with Vincent,Ronald,Fernando,Donny & Edwin. They were looking for shoes since there were big sales. Vincent bought a pair of black-red shoes , which is quite nice :) . Then fernando also bought black colour shoes, lols he kept complaining coz it sized 44 although his feet fit with that -.-.Then Edwin bought shoes ? and a small basketball . Siao , i wondered how he would play with that kind of so small de basketball . -.-! dumb :X. After we're all about to go home , suddenly vincent said that erwin is coming . -.- then we waited for erwin & jonathan . They guys are so bad ><. They kept saying that " jgn ganggu si cindy ah , ntar kita di gebukin si e " swt akh ..... After erwin & jonathan came , haishh then they went around again to see the shoes . Weather was damn hot , i'm tired ): . After some time , they we went home. Inside bus , Fernando & Ronald kept teasing me ): Ronald kept asking , " eh kita nih kan sama2 dr medan , pekanbaru , jd jujur aja la ama gw u sk e ya ? " AGAIN , I must make this clear , I don't knowwww . Mnurut gw seh biasa2 aja . Special feeling? idk coz i don't wanna think too much. As long as e and me are friends then can alrdy . So , pls dun kept asking me nonsense things ............ D:

STOP stealing please

2009-09-02T21:49:00.004+08:00

Geography test today . Luckily it isn't as hard as what i thought . Fiuhh ( sigh ) . But still i'm worried for the result :X

My messages to 'pencuri' :
Anyway , after school i was quite shocked when i heard that LiYi's and Laksmi's wallet LOST . OMG , napa seh ada pencuri di kelas gw ? Muka smua nda jelas , ga bs point finger ==. Jelas2 ini orgnya dr kelas ndri . Msa nyuri brang tmn skelas ndri ?! Ehhh pencuri , PLEASE DEH BERTOBAT ! Uda banyak yg jd korban u ( termasuk gw , i lost 2 ipods , wtf ! ) . I pity laksmi & liyi lots , their money now are gone . WHYWHYWHY? Why kept stealing other people's belongings ? Don't you feel guilty at all ? Are you satisfied to buy things that u want with money which isn't ur money at all ? STOP stealing ppl's belongings please . We're all classmates. Probably u're just heartless , never think about how the ppl who lost their valuables which are stolen by you . You thought you woulnd't get caught coz over the years nobody knew was the one that stole all those things. But one more thing , GOD knew what you did ! One day , you'll suffer .
Honestly , gw yakin yg nyuri tuh mah org sg . International students mah ga nyuri , unless if their mind got problem . International students should know why they wouldn't do such silly things bah .
So to that stealer , beware hor .. One day , you might get caught after stealing so many of ur own classmates' belongings , including mine . My ipod + my ex's ipod , do you know how much they worth ? Do you know how pain my heart was like to lose both of the ipods ? Do you understand how bad i felt to lose my ex's ipod ? Till now , i still can't forgive mself to be so careless to lose an ipod of a person who had trusted me to keep it . You won't understand how ur classmates felt , coz u're HEARTLESS !

I'll miss you all

2009-09-01T20:13:00.003+08:00

Happy birthday to Jackie & Xuanha . Wish you both the best ((: .
Anyway Happy Teachers Day too ^^.
Haishh didn't do much today , just continue to watch the taiwan movie , surf internet & went to shawplaza to buy some food . Anyway i rarely online auditionSEA le ): . Quite sad , but nvm . Too addicted gave myself problems :X . Lastly happy 3rd birthday AuditionSEA ! :D

Last night PomTai texted me messages :

PomTai : " Realli? Ahhh i wil miss u alot_sobs so sad T^T "
Cindy : " Haha . Yeah . I'll miss all of u too :) also sad , im gonna stay alone ): "

( blablabla ~ some conversation... )

PomTai : "Thank you^^hai~if so long nver see each other den we meet again i think i wil bcom taller dan u_hahaha"
Cindy : " Haha . Gud la if u become taller than me :)) haha. "

( after that end le just say gudnight & byebye )

Haishhh i sure will miss the old times . The times being together in the hostel with them . With my godbrother ( Milton & PomTai ) , they were like my own younger brothers who can just cheer me up and make me laugh/smile . With my dear roommate ( Sintya ) who have been the best roommate i ever had over the years . With all the hostelites & with aunty Jennifer. Even though aunty Jen always raised her voice at all of us . I knew she meant good . Thx for all (: . iloveyouall ♥

Soon , i'm gonna move out of this hostel . I wonder what would my life be , living alone on my own ... Hopefully everything will be okay and i can concentrate on my studies . Final Year Examination coming , Cindy jiayou ! :D ♥

Teachers Day Celebration

2009-08-31T15:17:00.005+08:00

Yesterday Yizhen helped me in blogskins. Sorry Yizhen i changed the blogskins again. Sorry to waste ur time & ur effort ): . Coz i hardly see the new blogskins ( the music one ) . It's so small :X . Sorry ya D: . Anyway I managed to do it last night . Then finally i succeed in changing blogskins on my own (: .

Today,teachers day celebration . Super nice performances . There are indian dances mixed with hiphop , contemporary dances+hiphop ( damn cool! ) , solo & duet singers ( wonderful voice ) , band singers . Omg i'm so jealous to see the band singers playing their stuff. I wanna play drum . Wanna be a drummer >< . Mum , I want to learn, can I ? In fact i also want piano >< . Mum , teach me please ): . Anyway great day (:

However , during recess , i got damn irritated by one normal tech girl in sec 3 ( the skinny one ) . Wtf she raised her voice just right beside my ears and said " Excuse me! " Wtf man ! Who u think u are huh ! Cannot talk nicely is it ? U r cutting queue while i just wait for my fren to buy her drink & suddenly u just came and irriteted me . Got so furious & became badmood . Then i talked back and spout out vulgarities at her . I said " pu ki mak " . And obviously her friend ( the fattie ) who stood beside her , heard what i said , then she kept looking at me . After buying their drinks , they both walked pass me again . This time i shouted loudly and said " Don't shut beside my ears okays ! Fck you ! " And the fattie heard me again . I'm not sure about that skinny bitch . Hope she heard it too . Knnccb !

Supposed i met karina & ferra after sch for a drink , but karina cancelled it , got reunion ? nvm (: . Enjoy ya Kar . wakaka .

BOREDOM in my life

2009-08-29T23:00:00.005+08:00

I miss waterboom. I miss Pekanbaru. I miss my friends there ):

Tuition from morning till afternoon. Didn't go anywhere today.

BOREDOM.

I wanna go back to my normal life. All of it had changed ):

你不关 ? 好吧 , 我也不要想那么多了 . . . .

2009-08-28T18:30:00.003+08:00

I MISS SHERLIANA,NIA,FEBBY & MARSELA .

Do you even care ?
When i asked you about that , you'll reply like if it's not important.
Do u know how i feel ?
CONFUSION .
I sacrifice , I tried so hard to get this chance to moving out .
I've got to find a fake reason .
My parents got to lie to her .
But , u don't even take this seriously .
Every minutes , i'm worried .
It's just a few days left , what should i tell them ?
What should i do ? )):

你不关 ? 好吧 , 我也不要想那么多了 . . . .

Nvm . I've talked to Mum . I'll stay alone for this moment , since u seem to have no interest/care about this . Then nvm bah , i dun force . Hopefully i can concentrate on the coming End-Of-Year Exam . Jys Cindy (: . I also hope that i could cope with the new life later. Wish there wouldn't be anymore problems which may stress me . I'll pray to you God >< .

U let me down , it's hopeless

2009-08-27T22:19:00.013+08:00

25 August '09 [ THE DAY BEFORE YESTERDAY ]

Thanks to Ta Hai An for the bday gift :D

Thanks to Milton , Hoang Kim & Kim Heng for the birthday present :D

26 August '09 [ YESTERDAY ]

CCA today :D . Hehe finally i got to wear the no 9 jersey :) . Anyway , Mr Peter irritated me & the others after sch , stare what stare huh?! Paiseh ya , i uncontrolably shouted at him , " WHAT ?!" , coz he kept staring at us without any words at 1st . Haiyaaa , just ignore that abnormal 'teacher' ==! Then when i was talking to Jansen and Jay about the SLEB , Mr Peter came again and disturbed us! Then Mr Peter asked Jansen to follow him , then they went to 2A . Mr Peter is so unreasonable! How can he ask the whole ppl inside the 2A class to come out of the classroom and waited outside while he talked to Jansen . I mean , can't he go to other place to talk to Jansen personally instead of asking the whole ppl in the class to come out ? HAISH ! Anyway , pity Jansen , he got scolded by Mr Peter coz Mrs Ong complained about the impolite behaviour ? idk , lols .

Anyway thanks to Augustina for the bday present :)) . It's a necklace with letter 'C' & It's packed very nicely ^^ . Hihi .

27 August'09 [ TODAY ]

Mother Tongue was fun today. I hope nobody will misunderstand what Anisah said during the lesson just now , coz E & Jo was there >< . @____@ Anisah .... , Js doesn't suit me la ==! He suits you :D . Haha !

Then Hongwei sms me , Haish , wanna sent me home ? No need bah , thx anyway .Haishh then got PL meeting . Talked about the SLEB . Anyway congratz to Shankar for becoming the 2nd Vice-Head of PL . :D . hehehes.

In the bus , met Juvensia & Sunglim . Then i decided to go with them . They wanted to go to have their haircut at balestier plaza 1st . hahas .

After selfstudy , something shocked,disappointed me very much .

U know what I hope .

Out of this hostel ,

Then go to home-sweet-home ♥ ,

is what i want .

But u let me down ):

Out of a sudden ,

u just give that bad news for me D:

Do u even know how i feel when u say like that ?

I trust u to live with me ,

and yet this is what u give me .

I'm really disappointed + upset ):

Please think about my feelings ~ ):

Can't u all be frank ?

2009-08-24T22:26:00.004+08:00

In the morning , Katarina called me . Then after i arrived at sch , went to2D to meet Katarina . Haha thanks ya sayankqu :D . She gave a bdae present to me - a very cute pink cup ( the above picture ). Xie Xie Ni sayankqu :D

:D . English lesson , speech presentation . I felt quite relieved after i had my speech , at first was damn nervous . Anyway , Chen's speech was humorous and it entertained the whole class . haha, it's about guys who also need to style,not only girls. They wanted the school to allow them to have ong hair haha ! Then Jaye's turn , this one also very funny , he made funny movements while doing his speech which was very nice . Kept laughing,haha!

After school,Eric gave me something . Thx lots , that's a present from Erwin, Jonathan, Eric, Fernando, Donny & Ivan. Thanks lots for giving me a headphone as u all knew that my previous headphone spoilt after some buses drove over it. :)) Yes, i like the present . Another two was a thing to play a music ? idk whatit is called . The other one was 'gantungan hp' . hehe . makasihhh bgt ya :D . Anyway there's also a card . The msg on the card was so touching >< . Smile for that :)

Then CCA , nobody came for cca today , except for Aidah and me . Today was quite okays even though only 2 ppl came for training . At least i learnt some movements in bball . And thanks to coach for the jersey , black and white , number 9 ♥ . Nice number which is choosen by coach and to be frank i actually wanted no 9 too :D. haha !

After that went back hostel , again , perang di msn ==! When will all of you stop ? I'm really confused . And honestly , i'm tired of this ): . Both sides were my good friends , but why both dislike each other? Beibh & me wanted a great bdae party , but ended up so badly like this . I don't really wanna care about this problem. Just wanna advise , please S.T.O.P , can't all of you ? And this is what i wrote during the perang msn .

" IN ONESELF , ONE KNOW WHAT HE/SHE HAVE SAID/DONE . GOD KNEW ALL .. WHETHER U ALL WANT TO ARGUE OR HIDE UR MISTAKES , STILL GOD KNEW .. SO PLEASE CHANGE ... I'M REALLY TIRED TO SEE ALL OF YOU LIKE THIS ? AREN'T WE ALL SUPPOSED TO BE GOOD FRIENDS? THEN WHY MUST ALL OF YOU KEPT QURRELING AND SAID SOMETHING FROM THE BACK AND YET DUN WANNA ADMIT . [ honestly , i know who's wrong now ] i've had enough . thankyou ! "

Some of you might know what i mean . So , please dun ask me about the sentences in the above . ty. I've had enough . Just stop , stop all that , we're all friends , aren't we ? Think about those wonderful time we all had together , why must it all become so horrible like this .

PS : DON'T ASK ME ANYTHING REGARDING THIS . TY .

Happy Birthday

2009-08-23T12:54:00.004+08:00

21 AUGUST '09 ( updated )

Happy Birthday to Cindy Wijaya :D

I'm one year older now :D , 14 only , lols ..
Anyway , thanks a lot for those who wishes me :))

Gals :

Shayne,Jade,Vania,Sabrina,Bea,
HaiAn,Katarina,Catherine,Karina,Meme,

Farida,Yizhen,Febby,Nia,Sherliana,
Marsela,Augustina,Marshely,Mellinda,DaHae,

HaiLun,HuanYi,Sintya,Hoikei,Claudia,etc.....

Boys :

Jonathan,Erwin,Fernando,Ronald,Ivan,

Vincent,Christian,Wandi,Wirvan,Chen,

Mighty,PomTai,Milton,Damien,Alex,

JunDong,ko Heryadi,etc....

and my family
those who commented and wishes me on my facebook wall ♥ thanks a lot :D love ya.

Wow,at 1st i thought very few ppl remember this day.Then at 11pm plus i login to my facebook , and surprisingly, my fb's wall is flooded with wishes from my friends in indo,sg and strangers :)) . Haha . Thank you very much . I'm really happy .
For the gifts, thanks a lot :D

I wonder who were the ones that remember this day truly from their heart ..

22 AUGUST '09 ( updated )

Happy Happy ♥♥♥ ~
Went to The Cathay n PlazaSingapura with Karina,Ferra,Catherine,Wandi,Christian,Meme,Farida,Yizhen,Adi,Mike,Mellinda and Marshely ((:

Thx for all d gifts :D and thanks for the wonderful day we have together to celebrate my bday n cath's bday. Love all of you very much :) . Sadly,i didn't join them for the midnight movie D: . Again,it's coz of my guardian ==! I wanna move out as soon as possible ! Ferra,let's move! HAHA! Anyway,once again,thanks a lot . I've got a great day with all of you . love ya ♥

Anyway, my laptop is back to normal :D it recovered :) . Now got sound le ^^. haha.

23 AUGUST '09

Watch a taiwan episoded movie , and i'm done watching it ! So touching , i cried D: .

Around 7pm went to plazasing again to meet Catherine,Ferra and Karina. Eat at macdonald , then went to pc bunk to play audi for an hour :) . Then go home

Why must all of you kept blaming each other ? argue ? angry ? i really dun understand why u all hate each other so much D:

I MISS MY BEST FRIENDS IN INDO

2009-08-19T22:41:00.002+08:00

I MISS THEM ♥

Boredom D:

after school just went to sleep )): . I wish i can online audi D: . This freaking ' no-sound ' laptop ran me mad ==! Couldn't i play ? D: . God , please help me find the ways to solve this matter ): . I want to listen to songs from my laptop , play with InsanitoriuMers , etc , can't I ? T___T hiks .

I wonder who remember what day is this Friday without me telling them :X . I wish I can be a two persons, one at S'pore , the other one at Indo,pku . Therfore i can at least share and celebrate that special day with my bestfriends in indo D: . I wish i am there ....

Happy Birthday Beibh

2009-08-18T20:14:00.006+08:00

( That's Mum and me ♥ )

Saturday => Sunday ( i was with Dad & Mum :D )

hehehe :) . On Sunday , Ferra's parents & her bro came to my condo to have a talk with my parents about the movement . Everthing is okay :) . They got the same thinking . Lols .

Yesterday , Mum & Dad went to meet aunty while i was still at sch , having cca . Then Mum called me , told me what she said to aunty jen ( my guardian ) . I cried ,but I don't know why . After Mum talked to me , Dad took the phone and talked to me in annoying kinds of voice . He just said some sentences , then hung up the phone ==! I would rather have a good talk with Mum. Hufhh ! Then at night , Mum called again , but Dad wasn't there coz he was talking to uncle Thomas while Mum was calling me inside her room . Talked much with Mum . Yeahh , so , the movement was postponed to end of september coz aunty jen said that there must be a one month notice b4 moving out , otherwise , we could not take back our deposit .So , i got to wait for about 1 and the half month again . Ferra's family have agreed ? :D thx yo ^^ . hihi ~ There's one thing that i kept thinking in my mind . I want to move out , but i also don't want D: . Dilemma dilemma dilemma )): . Hiks ~

Btw i'm so sorry to InsanitoriuM . I didn't online for few days due to the extremely bad internet connection & that because my laptop got some problem . No sound at all D: . " No audio output is installed " It writes that in the screen TT . Hiks ~ T________T . sorry , i also want to online , but i have no choice but to wait till everything goes back to normal so that i can online .

Lastly , HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO CATHERINE , my beloved beibh ♥ . Wish u happy 16 and wish u all the best :D . love ya x)

Whatever

2009-08-15T18:42:00.004+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO PUVA ! :D

Saturday , yeahh ~ went to school this morning for SLEB meeting . Lols! Irritating meeting,so lazy ~ Shall i quit or not ? DDD: puzzlement x.x ! Rehearsal for SLEB investiture ~ Why must it be so complicated just being a student leader . Phototaking seasion just now , it's like 'wth!' . We've got to pinned up all the fringe . Like a nerd ! & i'm ( most of the SLEB member ==! ) going to be seen as a nerd in the SLEB organisation board later ! Some boys hair got cut . & the girls had to take photo with such a terrible hair ( fringe ) ! ==!

After the meeting , Puva,Jade,Vania,Sabrina & me went to singpost . Badluck or what idk , when we went inside the 154 bus to go to singpost , we sat upstair and there was a guy in his 30s maybe who kept looking at us ! & all of us got irritated very very much ! Jade was furious coz that pervert guy kept staring . So , this part was fun , all of us talked loudly ( burst out ? shouted ) at him saying " SEE WHAT SEE HUH ? " + " ................................ " many things we said . But still he kept staring & smiling like fck . Wtf man ! Damn annoying ya pervert guy ! Then when we came down from the bus , unfortunately , that pervert stopped at the same bus stop ! hell ! Then we all go to macd-singpost . Met Jonathan , John and Jansen at macd . Nona & huijun were there too . And u know wad, after a moment, that pervert came to macd to buy a drink . wth ! Kept following ! Then i told Jansen about that pervert . Then Jansen talked face-to-face to that pervert not to keep looking at us ( the girls ) . But that pervert acted like if he couldn't hear/understand what Jansen said . Waseehhh , that guy really fcking annoying ! Jade was one who got really irritated . Lols . In the end that pervert wanna find a seat in macd , but unfortunately for him , there was no seat , all full . So he took this drink and went off . After some time , a bald cute hndsm malay guy came , he's sabrina's friend . Haha ! Then atikah came , wew we waited for her so long . haha ! Anyway , the bball team came to , idk whr they went to , they don;t even tell me anything about it , whatever la idc , maybe u all think that im not in the team ==! Saw wenchin too , at first can't recognise her. She's pretty with her new hairstyle . haha ! Then ruzaini & ploy came to meet jonathan & john ~ After that Jade, Sabrina, Puva, Vania, Atikah, the bald cute guy went around singpost . Then went to popular bookshop . Infront of popular , there was a sale for panties ( underwear ? lols . ) . Then i bought a spongebob panty for Puva for her bday present . Haha ! The seller & the aunty who walked pass all laugh & smile . A spongebob panty for a birthday girl , this is nice , cute & cool ! We'll never forget this moment ! haha . My bday coming next week , omg , dun gimme a panty like what i gave to puva . hahahha ! I enjoyed today's event very much ! Love them :D

Yeessaa , tonight going to overnight with Mum & Dad , in a hotel ? But i got to fetch them in airport D: at 10pm D: so late ==! hiks ! nvm . Hopefully tmrm ferra's parents can meet my parents for a talk about the movement to my condo :) .

Btw i heard that my beibh out from the FAM . Beibh , i dunno why , but i want to know why . I've my own reason too , coz maybe i want to be out too . I's just that , aq blum siap buat quit . All the friendship ...... but i always got emo being di kacangin ama mrk . Or maybe i should just join my beibh's fam ?

I'm so pissed off

2009-08-13T22:14:00.004+08:00

( Mohammad's shoe + there he is , trying to get back his shoe which is hanged at the screen )

[ Again , Sabrina and me :DD ]

Haish nth much today . My malay common test got 62/80 :)) . Hehe happy . I win her* :D , by 1 mark only T.T . Nvm jys cindy :) After sch do chill@mac duty . Then go back hostel . Decided to go cut hair , just cut a bit and make it thinner . Lols .

Hohoho , i skipped selfstudy tonight :D . Coz there's FAM channel and i don't have d mood to study at that time . Just chiong fampoint . Haishh ~ . Then around 9 pm plus . I went up to the livingroom with my roommate to get my uniform which i sent for laundry . And u know what , I WAS SO PISSED OFF ! Fcking Aunty bastard ! Cannot talk nicely ar , huh ?! When i want to take my uniform , she said " I just told all of you not to touch it , coz if you all touch it , u all will mess it !!! " WTF , since when did she ever said that to evryone in the hostel ?! knnccb ! I was damn furious , then i went back to my room , got into badmood ! ==! I WANT TO MOVE OUT !

Then went back to my room , chatted with Jonathan,Ronald and Donny . Thank you very much to all of them . My temper is cooled down . Coz we talked about many funny and hilarious things . Wwkwkw talked about the meaning of ( some indo badwords ) + 17 august { indo national day , we wanna skipped sch and go to the indo embassy , hope so } + The Third Generation ( we wanna make a terrosist gank haha , to replace Noordin . haha that's a big joke, coz we'll never be a terrorist ! haha we're good student mah :D hha ) . Once again , thx :) I enjoyed the chatting which had made me laugh so much . And my mood is better now :)

I want to move out

2009-08-11T22:23:00.003+08:00

YES ! Got my history paper :D and i passed ( 7/10 marks ) ! I thought i would fail D: . Lols >< . Haha , coz Ms Ong looked at me with ._. a kind of face which frighten me , thought i failed ): . Then when i looked at the paper , SMILE :)) PASS ! haha !

Tag exp with w today . Thx yo . Bru 93% =.=! I want ' back up ' level , 26 ! >< . hihi ~ Then today 1st time go 'arena' and play competition for couple . Lols . Of cuz we failed :X . As usual , both lag D: + the map for the competition sucks ( hiphop map ) ! damn laggie ! Hardly could move D: and press the key D: . Nvm . haha .

Anyway I'm damn damn damn HAPPY when Ferra told me a good news ! Ferra told me that her mum allowed her to stay with me xD . Yehaa ! I got a companion :) . & she said that maybe her mum will come to SG to talk about the movement house to my parents . Sadly my parents are in korea now D: . Hope they can meet and talked about it as soon as possible . Then have a talk wuth my guardian ( hpefully aunty will not get angry coz i wanna move out from her hostel . Lols ) . I just can't stand this ' bad condition hostel ' . I mean , u increased the hostel fee , but the quality/facilities are getting worse since there are no maids now . It's so hard ==! I've got to wash my own uniform , clothes , clean room , etc , unlike previously . By the time i arrived hostel is already late , then still have tuition & selfstudy . SO how can u expect all the hostelites to do all those on their own ?It's not fair for us .

Sighhhhh

2009-08-10T18:33:00.004+08:00

Chinese tuition this morning . As usual , fun . English tuition was cancelled :)) . Played audi for the whole afternoon , lols . Couple wedding with W today . Not happy or anything . Heart-broken instead , coz of some ppl in fam . Waseh ! When haru [not real name] said sth , my heart felt sth pain abit , for a moment . So , during wedding party also no mood . Lols . Anyway , 1st try , fail , less 2 syncro pf . 2nd try , passed :)) . Last seconds of getting 1 more syncro pf . haha ! Then after wed , play normal game . I wrote " (emotion pic) hurt ~ ~ ~ " for the room title. And straight away W knew wad i mean . He knew who & why -.-! Ps & sorry . I just can't forget haru totally, but nvm , it'll try my best like what cc lala had said . He don't worth it . Why are all guys almost the same ? Why do guys love to hurt girls' feelings ? Seriuosly , they are too much . Let him go & stay in a peace :D . Cc lala also told me sth just now which i dunno at 1st . Now i know what he is actually . Shoo , i've really gotta forget those moments .

Hihi ~ Ferra asked her Mum today about staying with me :) . Her Mum is okay with it . Now , just waiting for Ferra's Dad decision - agreement . I really hope to move :)

As for Beibh's ( 18 Aug ) & my bday ( 21 Aug ) , we decided to celebrate it together for a K-Box with the InsanitoriuMers :)) . Love ya .

Love my parents

2009-08-09T20:08:00.005+08:00

Today ( 09 August 2009 )

HAPPY NATIONAL DAY TO SINGAPORE !

Alright , i watch the NDP 2009 from the live shown on TV. It's damn nice ! Anyway , today went to CityHall with Mum & Dad . Yehaaa , today bought a green tangtop ( FOX ) and a black sweater made top ( G2000 ) ((: . Thx ya Mum ^^ I should say ' wow ' . In Raffles City mall , when Mum & I were wandering around , shopping , suddenly an angmo come & ask my Mum ' excuse me ,how do you curl ur hair ? " The we replied ........blablabla ...... In d end , he asked me to come over to get my hair curled for free :) . At 1st i found it weird + ungly . But after hours , I think it's quite nice to get my hair curled.However,my hair is not long enough to be curled ): huhu . Btw i did housework at my home-sweet-home (: Hahaa love it :D Arrived hostel around 7.30pm . Uncle Thomas & my parents sent me back to hostel . Then Uncle Thomas sent my parents to airport , going Korea :) . Meeting parents again next week ^^. Hope by that time everything can be settled , i wanna move ! :D

Yesterday ( 08 August 2009 )

Morning around 10.45 went out to meet E,J,F & D to do d malay project. Then took taxi went to marina parade library ? The meet the other groups there . Oh gosh , in fact i don't really enjoy it at 1st D: I got distracted by sth . Then we finished up d project at around 3.30pm ? maybe . Then went to parkway had Ayam penyet . Loools . Very very spicy - the sambal . Hahaha ~ After that went to meet my parents at around 5 plus going to 6pm .

♥ Mum & Dad ! ^^

Yeaha ! I'm happy :)) I talked so much today , talked about d getting-worse-and-worse hostel D: . Maybe i'll move to my own house at CitySquare ( @ FarrerPark ) . I hope so . Hostel is just so complicated now . I can't live in this kind of bad conditions coz i'm so busy with my schoolwork D: . I mean , how can d hostel changed so badly like that ? No maids , food - i'm speechless , laundry - the worst , one week two times only ? wth . Last time was 'everyday' -.-! So , yeah , maybe i'm going to move to my own hose at sg . I invited Ferra this afternoon , hope she wants to stay with me . I have discuss with my parents & my grandpa . Gotta be more mature & independent this time ( if i move ) .

Lets celebrate SG's b'day

2009-08-07T14:48:00.004+08:00

Singapore's National Day Celebration at School .

Celebrate SG's birthday today . Actual da is on 9 August . Fantastic show by the students & d choir . Plok plok . My applause , lols . Anyway i was quite surprised when i realised that E and 1 more guy were d one who sang " What Do You See " ( duo-main singers + d choir members ). Wew both E had a wonderful voice ( just realise ) . Lol cool , he got the courage to show up in front of d whole school and sang with the other boy . This reminds me of Wirvan ( my friend in indonesia,he got a wonderful voice too,like a real singer lol ) . Then d choir sang " Where I belong " and sang some other songs with d students . :D great day great performance . I wonder how is 17 august ( Indonesia national day )is going to be ... The day is coming , next week maybe ? D: i miss indonesia TT .

After school i decided to skip d sl meeting . Lazy D: 1 hour meeting , dunwan -.-! Then went to Toapayoh with Katarina ♥. Had our meal at macdonald :) loveher :) .

Then went back to hostel , meet DaHae on my home . Talked in d bus :) . I was thinking , ' should i move hostel ? This hostel is getting worse D: Laundry and cleaning become so complicated , unlike previously when d maids iare still here . Yes , i pity aunty ): . But what to do ? It's just so hard .. I'm very busy of schoolwork & yet this problem in d hostel came & made a sudden great changes ): . I was thinking , ' should i stay on my own apartment ? ask some friends to live with me ? It's not easy too , got to do housework D: . Is living in SG that hard ? To be independent ?

Good that you* understand how i felt . You knew i was qite shocked when u tell me to go to library with them* . & you* knew i was not hoping to see someone there . U knew i'll get angry . I just need 1 thing , ' don't raise my temper ' , or ' it will drive me mad ' D: . I just got irritated , S also doesn't wish to see that someone too . Thx for ur understanding for asking me to go to other place if i don't want to go there . Anyway , it's up to all of you of where u all are going to do d project . My intention is to get d project done .

EEKS

2009-08-06T17:25:00.002+08:00

Haishhh yesterday no internet again D:

Anyway , yesterday , there was bball training . Quite ok , i dun play a lot . Gw blg ke coach 'stomachache' . Lols , ge mls maen seh ~ capekkk x.x BTW CINDY'S going mad ! My maths test got 13/15 !Wth 1 careless mistake == . dumb dumb ! Why am I so careless -.- if i had realised that careless mistake , i would have gotten fullmark D: OMGGG stress =.= & i failed my science again ): . At 1st i though i'll pass , but turn up to be horrible ~ 11/30 . shyt ! even some of the top 10 students also fail =.= I wonder how Mr Chin marked the paper =.=!!!!!! Hufhhh ~

Today , duty for Chill@Mac after sch . IPW aihhss must creat website about food Lols . Btw dr smenjak ari tuh ampe skrg gw ga ngmng ke dia* . Let's see bah ~ I dunwan to be d one to talk 1st . Lagian ada project , lama2 jg bkal ngmng ge -.-. Smua gra2 loe* . Puas loe* hah ? Gw ga ngmng ama dia* sminggu ! Puas ? Blom ? Makan eeq sana , asu ! Kalo brani sene ngmng face-to-face ! Brani ga ? Dlu pas gw ngmng ke loe* face-to-face aja u ampe kabur . 1 kata pun ga keluar dr mulut loe*. Stau gw yg coward tuh loe deh , bukan J . Ngaca oii ~

IMY

2009-08-04T16:57:00.004+08:00

=.= Yesterday no internet , therefore couldn't online )):

Anyway today was quite ok . Haishhh last nite i almost got sick . Then when wake up in d morning , became better :) .

Then today had PE , fun ! My maths test ^^ , haha hopefully i can get A1 this time ((: ( full mark would be better :D ) Then PL meeting after sch , talked about SLEB and d coming up events . Lols .

During PE i suddenly remember of haru ( not real name ) .. I miss him D: . Wish i can play audi wid him & talk about many things like last time ): . But ......... swt akh ~ Then after meeting , Vania & me went down to canteen to look for sabrina . Laugh & shared our stories to each other :) . & again when talk about boys , it reminded me of haru D: . huhu ~

Anyway today hostel was almost completely different as usual coz the maids were all not here today. Idk what happen & where are they lols . So today everyone had to was their own dishes { some kept helping others , lol } . & I washed y own dish after had my dinner . Lol . This reminded me of my home , where i can be wid my family D: . Miss them (:

GRRRRRR !

2009-08-02T20:51:00.011+08:00

ASDFGHJKL;' !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Afternoon played audi . Then went to Shaw Plaza with my roommate,Sintya . Happy :)) Hihihi ~ Then went to 7eleven go buy@cash for auditionSEA , 20k . Lol. I bought a face ( shy mode ) , a cloth ( white colour ) & item for changing skin colour :D through the @cash .

Then suddenly , sth happen . I got so furious when one told me sth -.-! Mank sejak kapan gw tulis getu hah ? Why must u keep raising my temper huh ?! Mai si sua kong wua e bo ha ? Gw ga bakal ambil dia dr loe koq ! Ga sah ampe takud getu ampe ngebacotin gw dr blakang lha ! I got no feeling for him nor anybody ! So u dun have to be like this alrite . Im trying to forget the past and be good to u , but why must u always raise my temper? Kesabaran org tu ada batasnya . Skrg u bayangin kalo u di posisi gw , apa yg u rasain hah ?! Lastly , jgn talk nonsense truz lha ke org laen . Kalo ga sk ngmng face-to-face ke gw . This really annoyed me . Gw aja ga ganggu lu , napa coba lu harus irritate gw truz . Gw ga ngmngin u , ngapaen loe ngmngin gw truz ? & ga sah stalk truz . Yg laen g ga sk ama dia , jd lu juga ga sah repot2 cri infomasi nge-stalk mlolo . Dikid2 ke po kalo liad org laen dkt ama dia . D: Pls dehh dr dlu loe slalu getu , berubah lha & sadar lha knp tmn2 dkt u dlu skrg menjauh dr u ~ Hope one day u''ll understand :) . I'm just telling for ur own good. Whether iu want to think positively or negatively , ur choice. Bt of cuz we want u to be positive-thinking .Nobody is perfect in this world.

Emang ach , enakan di indo . SG = PROBLEMS ! I miss febby,nia,sherliana & marsela . wish u all were here & we can be together happily , unlike now . TO MAMA & PAPA : I'm not happy . I'd rather school in Santa Maria )): ........ T________________T Do you heard it ? No , you don't D:

~badmood~

Project project haishhhh

2009-08-01T23:20:00.005+08:00

English tuition from 10.30-12.30pm. Then continue to Chinese tuition from 1.30-4pm . So tiring T_______T . HuHu.... at 7pm then meet E & J at united square . Go starbucks to do our malay project . Haishhh , dun really know how to combine & edit to make a one completed nice video . Haishhhh ! Anyway today was quite fun , but inside starbucks we were all dying of cold air-con =.=! Kedinginan stngah mati T.T . Nobody brought jacket somemore T.T . Cold cold cold . We painted some our own creation introduction of d video slide [ d above pictures ] Lols . Mostly d lines were done by E . loool . Then the others were done by J & me . Weww i almost late going back to hostel . I supposed to come back by 10pm . Luckily i arrived at 9.58pm . Untung aja kalo nda tuh aunty bakal ngomel2 ge , then freedom ge kena ambil TT. wkwkwk untunggg aja . sigh~

Then after arrive hostel . Continue online audi . Sry haru & thx for letting me brk d cople . Untung aja haru blg gpp kalo brk cople , & dia blg sorry ke gw gra2 ga bs temenin gw maen . Haish.. imisshim actually . Miss playing with him like last time D: . Then cople ama W soalnya kami sering maen bareng jd skalian aja cople . PS : Don't misundertand horr D: . I so scared u'll misunderstand . W & me is just sekedar adek/abang angkat doank or closefren only , not more )): . So mai misunderstand ya D: . I'm afraid u'll get angry ): . huhu TT.

Thk u very much Coach

2009-07-31T19:02:00.002+08:00

Today ~

Haha ilovefriday . Best day of d week . [ dismiss from sch early plus d subjects on today is arranged perfectly haha . Anyway D&T was quite fun . Sabrina didn't come to sch today . Then after sch went to bubbleteashop with Hai An ((: . Love my wifey* haha ! mwuah mwuah Hai An ! talk to her lots , we share our stories. It's nice to talk to her :D . Afternoon , a bit headache , so go sleep ! Then decided to stay in my room & skip selfstudy (:

Yesterday ~

Haishh . Tiring ~ MT was quite fun . But Science was damn boring . I just don't like the way Mr Chin taught us . Like just now , Sabrina was asking if he can give notes for everyone , like other class . All classes receive at least a note from their science teacher , UNLIKE Mr Chin who thinks that he's smart but don't know how other ppl think of him . Lastly , i dislike him .

The day b4 yesterday ~

Aiiihhs . Science common test . Maybe i pass ((: . Coz i studied for it ~ Anyway afternoon , i talked to Coach about quitting bball ... T_____T yes i cried when Coach talked to me . I felt so sorry for him . I wanted to say out all that i felt & some other sec 2 & how Maisurah felt . Same situation mah . Then around 30 min to 1 hr , talked about 'attitudes towards teammates' . Coach talked many things which we can learn . Then Coach let us talk freely . One by one they all talk crap , while i just listen & see their expression . Then Coach asked me to talk of how i actually felt . I really wanted to say all those feelings , but i don't have d strenght & confidence to talk in front of all of them & coach . Finally i said it out & told them of how i felt about this team . Of coz i dun say all , i can't say much more or my tears will fall . In fact when i talked to all of them , my heart was hurt , thus my tears actually fall, especially when i talked to coach . I sorry coach if i disappoint u . Anyway thx to Maisurah for d advice . I knew u [ Maisurah ] also felt the same thing as mine . I felt better after the team talk . N maybe im not going to quit . Btw coach said that next year is the last batch of d girls bball team . After next year maybe girls bball cca will be close down , which means maybe in sec 4 i had to transfer to other cca . haishhh .Lastly thank you very much to coach for promising me to talk to them about this . You're like my father . Thx ! ♥

Walaupun uda ngmng ama kalian , mngkn kalian ttp ga peduli x yah . Liad dr expresi kalian aja ttp aja sama . Emang percuma kalo ngmng ama org yg heartless kyk kalian ==! Sadarlah n brubah -.-

SWT I'm so careless

2009-07-28T21:07:00.002+08:00

Careless , careless , careless ! In d morning , I accidentally left my ez-link card in the bus 145 , maybe ? Haishhh == . When going to take 125 bus then i just realised. Lols .

Haish . PE today . Played volleyball . Quite fun but i think my hand was injured a bit D: , now swollen ? ==!

After school then went to Toapayoh interchange with Juvensia . Reason : To ask info about my ez-link card . I'd informed the ppl & they asked me to wait about 2/3 days . If still can't find it , i've got to remake new ez-link card . haishhh . how careless I am . Hope i can find it (:

Then in my way going back to hostel wif Juvensia , met E,E,J,V & L . Then d boys asked to go eat together again . Lols . Yesterday just go macd lols. Then today go balestier market [ kinds of foodcourt ] . I had my sourplum juice & kaya toast . Haha very nice ((: . Then all went back home ? idk . Weew... i was thinking sth on my mind . . . . . . . . . . . . Ni zai pian wo men hai shi zhen de sheng bing a ? pretending or .... ?

Anyway we talked about , " whether i should quit bball & join choir ? " OMG i'm confused ! Felicia's going to quit while kartika never come for training . Haishhh . Left me ? Should I quit too ? I've two reason : Too tired as i always arrive hostel so late & my second reason is THEM* . I'm annoyed by them* . look back to my post about team bah [ more specific ] .haishhh . I asked d boys & they said " yes , u should . " Alamakkkkk ! Dilemma ! I just can't stand this unlike-team-hood . Im sorry coach )): .

I don't know why

2009-07-27T21:04:00.006+08:00

Sry ya coach , hari neh aq cabud cca D: . Awalnya mau pege , tp tb2 ga mood D: sry sry . Tpi ga nyesal juga seh . Ketemu E,E,V & J di bus stop . Jadi plg bareng Juvensia ama mrk . Then decided go macd eat . Lols . Haha ternyata bumbu seaweednya di campur ama fries nya enak juga . wkwkw .

Sometimes i would ask myself :

Should I quit this game ? { Sometimes I wish to but I don't want to D: }

Am I ready for the consequences ? { Sacrificing for sch result ? }

Will my results drop ? { I'm afraid , getting lazier & lazier . Stress }

I am just afriad that my results will drop badly . In fact when i compared my results "last yearone" and " this year one" had a very bad difference . All drop ! Maybe im too tired ? That's y i always sleep during lessons [ if there're relief teachers ] ? Or is it because i play too much & addicted to this game ? I don't regret playing this game coz i got great friends* through it . But i'm still worry. Dunno what to say to parents . I dun want to disappoint them D:

English Tuition :

At first , idk why im so hyper , laugh & kept talking . Then suddenly don't talk , becoming so quiet . When Ms Lim ask , " Cindy , are you just too tired or not in a mood ? " I replied her , " I don't know ." Then she said , " Oh 'dunno' is worse . " Alright , sorry Ms Lim , but I , myself also don't know why suddenly i kept quiet , & dun have the mood to talk while the others was laughing & talking among themselves . Maybe I'm just not in a mood of talking ?Out of a sudden ?

Anyway Happy Birthday to Chan Hoi Kei , a macau girl [ my ex-roommate ] .

Btw get well soon too , to Sintya , my dear roommate . She's sick today.

EMOOO ~

2009-07-26T17:56:00.004+08:00

Hollaaaa :D mY internet is back xD ♡ yeahhh ! happy happy :D Just played audi today . D: boredom . Tml history test , i havent study . Die die . No mood . Headache comes to me again ? AAA ! Pusinkkk D: huhu . Kalo skt ya skt jgn tiba2 skt kepala pulaq . haishhhh ==! Btw thx to Yizhen for helping me to change my blogskin again ^^ .

Anyway , Get well soon to W . His temperatures keep going up & down ==! it's 37.6 & above . He took so many times & only 1 time got 37.0 . Then became 38.+ again ? Alamak ==! Go eat ur medicine or see doctor lha -.- ! & dun think too much , keep saying " i got h1n1 , dying soon " . Siaoo . cpt sembuhh la ~

Back to the past :

♡ Friday , 24 July 09 [ the day b4 yesterday ]

Happy Birthday to Vania Si . Wish u all d best . Happy 14 :D . Anyway , had a school learning journey to Esplaned after sch . Watched a play called " Talentine " . Good show ((: . But we waited very very long just to watch that play . Went there around 2.30pm maybe , then d play started around 4.30 ? idk . End up finish at 5pm plus . Then went for dinner @ BurgerKing with Candy,Eric,Jay,Juvensia & CongThanh at Toapayoh . Hehe .

♡ Saturday , 25 July 09 [ yesterday ]

Emo ? Cried today . Homesick ? Schoolsick ? [ Is there such word ? Idk ] . Suddenly i thought of Sherliana,Febby,Nia & Marsela . I miss them lots . I wish they are here too in SG , living & staying with me happily like a family . But they all aren't here . Instead I'm d one who's being out & sent to SG for further studies . To Mum & Dad : I know both of u mean good for me , for my future . But sometimes I just couldn't stand this life here . I miss my bestfriends over there very much . I miss you too , my family , even though i always fight wuth my elder bro , lil sista & my lil bro . The problem is d ppl here aren't d same as there . I miss the four of them very much . Sometimes i felt so lonely & excluded here . & In fact i lose contact with some of my hostelmates coz of audi . & Now after sacrificing for audi , i felt betrayed by some of them* [audi] . Mabye they just dun realise some changes in their characteristics , unlike last time . Mendingan skul di santa D: Di sini mah enaknnya cuma agak bebas . Iaghhh gw senenk koq di SG . Tapi kalo friends* , i prefer my previous school , santamaria , where my truefriends were .

I need them . I miss them . I want them to be here . Seandainya kalau kalian juga di sni . Kita bs tinggal bareng . Skolah bareng . Maybe my life would be perfect for now ♥ . Moga2 aja suatu saat kalian bakal ke SG juga . Jd kita bs hidup bersama dgn tenang . Ga kyk skrg , stress di mana2 & nobody care & understand . I felt like dying ~ My last words : I MISS MY BFF !♡

2009-07-24T21:33:00.005+08:00

SORRY TO INSANITORIUM !

I can't online for few days due to the lack of internet in my room D:

so sad DDDDDDDDDDDDDD:

i also want to online & play but there's no internet )):

psps yeah D:

2009-07-21T17:47:00.002+08:00

20.07.09 [ Yesterday ]

CCA resumed . Went for training from 3-6pm . Felicia curang loe ==! Msa tiap x dtg ga ikud train D: Sebel gw ama tuh ank2 team == ! Resek bgt apalagi sih JY ! Knnccb ! Loe kira gw ga ngerti kalian nmgng pake chinese getu ? Excuse me , I'm not that stupid ! & Gw ksh tw kalian smua [ org2 team basket gw ] , gw tuh bukan nya takud ama kalian smua , gw cuma ga mau cari mslh . Makanya gw diam2 aja , kyk org emo ato apa lah -.-! Swt , & to JY , ga sah bnyk gaya deh ! Loe kira loe pande getu maen bskt ? Ngacaaaa oiiiii ! Gw msh lbh pnde dr loe ! & napa gw ga leh spout vulgarities ? Kalian aja spout vulgarities more than me ! Ga sah ngmngin org , liad aja diri kalian ndri !Msh brani nanya gw " Why u never laugh ? Laugh la . " Big fck ! U think it's funny . Maybe u all think that joke is funny , but not to me . I've no mood at all ! Mank napa kalo kalian senior gw ?! Beda staun aja dah berlagak ! Lum tau aja sifat asli gw . Lum tau aja kalian kalo sikap gw di spore is totally different in indo . Dun make me behave harshly to all of u . U guys dunno what am I . Maybe only my closefriends & my bro & my mum know what i am actually . Gw aslinya kasar , jd ga sah cri gra2 ama gw ! Ngmng jg ga sah sok sok getu . Mank kaian kia kalian dah pro ? UEEEKKK ! Vomit blood ! If u want me to respect all of u , pls respect me too . I won't respect all of u if u treat us like this , i duncare how old u r & whether u r my seniors or what ! Behave urself -.- and one sentence , Don't make me hate some of u ! Do u all actually know why many of d sec2s quitted bsktbll cca ? It's coz of all of u ! U all dun realised it ! I wish to quit too COZ of all of u ! Is that what u all called as a team ? Phewww ! NO way for me & the others . Ga sah belagu . Ngmng baek2 napa , ga sah cri mslh ama gw . Tiap x kalian ngmng2 aja gw msh sabar , gw simpen di hati . Jd mendingan kalian ga sah buat amarah gw keluar kalo ndak kalian ndri yg kena akibatnya . & 1 hal ge , Kesabaran orang tuh ada batasnya !

^^ Hihihihi ~

2009-07-19T23:20:00.006+08:00

:DDDDDDDDDDDDD

Didn't do much thing today. Went out to ShawPlaza around 8pm just to buy some food at NTUC Fairprice. Bored leihhh ~

Then InsanitoriuM decided to make stiffy acc for FAM. So that we can chiong fampoint at the entry channel ^^. Here are d acc :

_IceLemon_ [ Cindy ; myself ]
_IceMelon_ [ Wandi ]
AsyluM & IMKarina [ Karina ]
_Bubble_Tea_ [ Ferra ]
_Bubble_Gum_ [ MrBlur ? idk his name ]
BabyYucky & GongVSMiao [ Catherine ]

We'll stop till lvl 5 ? hahaha ! Jyjys InsanitoriuM ((:

U ruin it

2009-07-18T23:24:00.003+08:00

=)) memorable day ? wkwk.

Went out with E,J,F,I & D. Thx to Ferra for accompanying me to go out wid them . I just felt so boring this few weeks. & I realised that i have been lose contact wid some of my hostelmates coz i kept hiding inside my room & play audi . I'll try to balance my time.

Met Jy & R at cineleisure. Met Jsmn too [ Jy's sista ] . Then had dinner at Es Teler . Lols ! The guys were very funny ! They kept counting the amount of mney they need to pay each other for the sushi . & they were confused . Haha . Oh , i met Som too ! She's damn cute + pretty in her dress + heel . Haha ! Haish met lots of ppl at cineleisure . I saw Juvensia too . Ko Peter & Ce Silvia were there too having their dinner . haha !

Decided to go to MiniToons to buy a present for Milton,my "bro" . I bought him a glass/cup ? idk . It's quite cute i think haha.

After that we separated. D & I went home wid mrt ? Then Ferra by taxi . E,J,F & me took taxi to shawplaza . We watched movie [ 9.30pm , so late im dying - got scolded by aunty -.-! ] " Duplicity " . Quite a nice movie , but i dun really understand the story . Psps . Around 10 plus , aunty called me =.=! shyt ! ihateher ! She's scolding me ? & say " i dont think u r telling truth! " wtf ! gimme that kind of msg ! Spoil my day & my mood =.=! I didn't watch all the movie . I left 1st . Anyway thx to E for sending me down outside shawplaza. Ps yah gw ga tw gmn u msk ke bioskopnya ge . Tiketnya ama F ga ama gw D: sry sry .

Ga bs apa liad org seneng dikid . Gw th stress tau ?! Mank umur gw ga bsr2 amed , but im mature enough . I know wad id right & wad is wrong . U dun hv to be that strict ! U really ruin my day ! sebel bgt gw td ! mood langsung kacau . marah?marah aja ! Mank gw peduli ? Keluar ampe jam 11 aja ga bole -.- . Yg laen aja bole ampe jam 12 . hell you. swt akh ! Damn guardian !!!!!!!